i need help

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i need help
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Fri, 08-26-2005 - 8:12pm

I'm coming undone. Everything is making me nuts. I am over analizing everything, and I am obsessing over the silliest things. I am sorry to keep posting such negative stuff, but I am so deeply trying to get through this on my own. Does it even matter what I am worried about anymore? It's all about my relationships and friends. I am so concerned about a mom who has a son my son's age. They are completly different, however, I keep asking for the boys to get together because I really like the mom. I know she likes me, but I feel like she is avoiding me because the boys are so different.

I feel like I'm dying.

Help.

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In reply to: jlvst
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 9:38am

Good idea. I think I will look into it today. I am just fearful of someone new. It is son hard to bare your soul to a total stranger. But, better that then how I am feeling, right? Sounds like you have it under control. The Xanax does help a lot. I am out of my prescription, and I am feeling anxious about that, too. Never ends, right!

Maybe I can get into my internist to see if she can prescribe me something until I get a new pdoc. I am on 20mg of Lexapro. I don't know if it goes any higher than that?

Hope you have a wonderful weekend. Thank you for being so supportive. I really appreciate it.

Much love, JD

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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 9:46am

I would think your internist could help you out. That's where I got my 1st xanax script. I went to a pdoc on my own, he didn't even recommend it until I brought it up. I think changing pdocs is alot easier than changing therapists. I find that I spend an average of 10 minutes with my pdoc and sometimes, moreso with my 1st one, I often wondered if she was even listening, lol. If I go to my MD, I sometimes end up with the PA, so even tho I'm in a comfortable environment, an office I know, I might get care from someone else there, too. I'm glad you're insurance will cover you with somebody, that's good. There's an excellent clinic I just found out about close to our new house that offers free and sliding scale care, but like you I really don't want to change. But it is an option I'll definitely keep in mind for the future. Enjoy the park with your boys, I'd love to have something like that close to where we live, what fun! BTW, I believe Heather is on 30 mg of Lexapro, so your dose isn't out of the ordinary :)

Sheri Ann

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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 10:21am

Jolie,


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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 11:50am
Jolie I have to agree with everyone else please seek help. I know it isn't always easy but you can only go it on your own for so long. I know this because that's what I tried to do to no avail. Get yourself some help and down the road you'll be glad you did. It isn't a sign of weakness but a sign of strengh to ask for help when help is needed. Good luck to you and may God be with you
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In reply to: jlvst
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 2:07pm

I've been exactly where you are and it's not easy. I've questioned everything in life from the stupid things to the major things. I've obcessed about them until it makes my head spin. You're are not alone in the slightest. I'm actually in a spinning pattern currently and I forgot how much I hate it.


Meds have helped me, meds do help me but I don't know that they would help all on their own. I see you've found

Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,

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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 2:11pm
You are such a doll. Thank you for understanding and offering such beautiful advice. I really need it, and I really appreciate it. It's always comforting to know that I am not the only one who goes through this. write to me anytime YOU need comfort, and I'll be happy to oblige. Much love, Jolie
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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 2:15pm
I have gotten help, and I just stopped seeing someone due to insurance changes. I have no problem asking for help, nor do I feel it is a sign of weakness. I am on lexapro, and things have been very hard lately. I am just feeling an intense anxiety attack these past few days. It will pass.
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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 2:19pm
Thank you for the response. I really didn't mean to hurt your feelings yesterday, and I am so happy you wrote back. My pdoc told me I could go up 10mg, but I never tried it. Now that I haven't seen him in a few weeks, I don't want to do it without supervision. I am sure it will be fine, but I still think I should ask. Do you notice a change from 20mg to 30mg? Side effects? Thanks again. Love,JD
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In reply to: jlvst
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 2:22pm

Thank you & You're Welcome Jolie. Life is rough but it helps to have friends, family and I think most importantly those who understand who you are and what you go through.


Much Love & Hugs to You Too!


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Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,

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Sat, 08-27-2005 - 2:26pm

Hi there,

Thanks for the response. Changing is horrible, but I think I am going to make an appointment this week with a pcp. I have one that knows my family well, and I can talk to her about my issues. She was wonderful to my family while my dad was in the hospital. I trust her. As far as a clinic, I don't know of any around my area. I only know of Jewish Family Services which does offer a sliding scale. I did try them years ago, and I thought the therapist was terrible. I am kindof turned off by it. I will look at my plan, because i agree I need to see someone.

We ended up going to the Botanic Gardens, and it was spectacular. I was walking with my kids and taking in the beauty. It is so gorgous there, and it makes you realize how beautiful life is. I haven't felt that relaxed in a while.

Hope to hear from you soon. Any time you need comfort, please know that I am here to help, as well. You have been wonderful. Love,JD