I'm having a bad day!!!

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Registered: 01-17-2001
I'm having a bad day!!!
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Sat, 09-03-2005 - 2:35pm

Hi Girls,


I was just outside enjoying the great weather doing yardwork when all of a sudden I got dizzy and everything felt unreal and fake for a good 5 seconds, like I didn't know where I was. Then my heart started pounding and my feet and hands went numb.


Now I am so shook up that I don't know what to do. I feel unreal and fake and it's starting to take me over full force. I am SO SCARED that there is something more wrong with me, maybe this isn't anxiety and that I did too many drugs in my younger days and its cathching up with me now.


The unreal feeling is really taking over and I just don't know what to do. I HATE this and I want my life back.!!


Do any of you get these symptoms when you have a panic attack? Does it come out of nowhere like mine just did?


I have also not been feeling great all week. Like the anxiety was just hiding.. when I get up in the morning it is so hard for me to face the day.


OMG I am just freaking out and so scared.. I want to be NORMAL again. Just a short 4 months ago I had it all.. now i have anxiety, if thats what it is.


I just took a klonopin but I think that I have built up a tolerance to it.. who knows.


I just need some kind words and my questions answered.. thanks everyone.

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sat, 09-03-2005 - 3:48pm

You're ok, Heather. I swear that I have had the exact same symptoms. The out of the blue, minding my own business panic attacks are the worst. They can unsettle

 

 


 



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Registered: 12-19-2003
Sat, 09-03-2005 - 5:22pm
Im sorry to hear that Heather. Thing is almost the same exact thing happened to me last night. I was in the passenger seat of my car and my g/f (dont even know what to call us yet) was driving and out of the blue everything felt unreal, i was real tired, different parts of my body started to hurt and I felt like I was about to panic. I toughed it out for a good hour and went to 3 different places and then drove home by myself while still feeling like that. My hands were feeling numb/tingly I feel like a fizzle sensation in my head. AND to make things worse flipping through the channels I pass by and start to hear that preview i really hate, just even knowing what preview it was had me freaked out even till right now. My morning has been bad im trying to eat more often cause I feel like my dying (literally) from not eating. I dont know how many times i've said I JUST WISH I WAS NORMAL. But trust me you will feel better again, its even hard for me to say that right now but deep down in my heart i know ill feel better. But to answer your question yes I usually have all of those symptoms when i have a panic attack espically that unreal feeling. When i read over your post its like reading something i would post almost exactly. I sometimes think that it can't be anxiety and it has to be something more but im sure everyone can tell you on here they thought the same thing. I know i feel like i need reassurance and would like to talk to a therapist again just for that fact.
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Registered: 05-29-2003
Sat, 09-03-2005 - 5:38pm

Heather,

Just relax and breathe. You are ok. You should probably contact your doctor just to make sure you are ok. Tell him your symptoms and see what he says. See how you feel after the medication kicks in. Did something happen recently that you are not dealing with? Are you totally stressed out lately? Most likely, it sounds like an anxiety attack. See if your husband can take the kids so you can get some rest. Maybe take a warm bath and focus on you. Please keep me posted as to what the doctor says and how you are feeling. It has nothing to do with your past "drug usage" Somehow, I can't imagine you ever trying anything illegal. You are ok. Just keep reminding yourself. You are human, and you are going to have good and bad days. You are a mom of two who has her hands full. Hang in there and keep intouch. Love, JD

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Sat, 09-03-2005 - 11:43pm

Thank you all,


I am feeling better. We went out to eat and i had the unreal feelings off and on but my other symptoms had pretty much gone away.


I then got a big ice cream and broke my diet :( but it was worth it. Then Jolie I took your advive and took a hot bath. That did make me feel better.


Dh and I just watched a movie, Ladder 49 with John Travolta it was

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Registered: 07-08-2005
Sun, 09-04-2005 - 12:27pm

Hi heather- hope you had a good night of sleep. Sorry i was not able to post yesterday. I get that unreal feeling too- its like a fog in my head. I obsess about things and take them to the nth degree- doomsday. This leads to panic and intense anxiety. so you are not alone. The posters here had some great sugestions and you were wise in taking the advice.

You are lucky that you are religious and hopefully can find comfort there, as well as from your family.

Lastly, what is NORMAL anyway? 1 out of 10 people suffer from depression and like 4 million people have anxiety/panic isues.

Have a great day
Elaine

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Registered: 05-29-2003
Mon, 09-05-2005 - 9:00am

I've been thinking about you all weekend, and I am so glad to hear you are ok. I'm glad you are healthy, and you are taking care of yourself. Nothing like a hot bath. I always put some lavender oil in the bath. It helps me relax. Also, the peace and quiet is what really does the trick. I know what you went through must have been very scary, so I'm so happy everything is ok.

Love, Jolie

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Registered: 05-18-2005
Mon, 09-05-2005 - 11:50am
Hi all, how is everyone doing? Heather, I have been having a bad week. I have taken more Xanax this week that I have in a long time. I just get so worried about my ds and his family and issues he has to deal with his ex. I also take all this to the nth degree. I obsess about it for hours and work myself up into a tizzy. Then I take a Xanax to help me calm down. It is such a vicious circle. I too want to be normal again and have my life be normal. I am so tired of the worrying and I can't seem to stop. I know we aren't supposed to worry but......I Do. Heather I hope you are feeling better, those kind of attacks are not fun. I get them too and wonder what is wrong with me. Sometimes I feel numb all over and like I am watching myself from the outside. IT"S WIERD!!! But the one good thing is I don't get them as often as I used to. Soooo, I hope that means it's getting better. Take care everyone.....I think the news from the Gulf doesn't help the depression either. JanW
Jan
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 09-06-2005 - 1:02pm
I read your post, Jan & thought I'd see how you're doing. I am sorry to hear that things have been rough. We have more in common than just our names, gf:) I have a hard time watching & reading about Katrina. I am limiting my viewing & just saying prayers for those in need. I