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| Mon, 09-19-2005 - 8:33am |
Hi y'all,
I am keeping an eye on the board for Janis today since she is out due to health reasons. I just wanted y'all to know I am here. You can get me through my email if its really important. Just wanted you to know you're not alone. I have sttruggled with PA myself and right now have only mild PA that I can talk my way through. I have been on Buspar, Xanax


Hi Julie,
Thanks for pitching in for Janis. I'm doing OK, just posting a lot this morning. It warms up my fingers for the transcription I'm doing later today. :)
I have GAD and depression, though not in tandem (depression comes and goes). :) I'm not on meds but have managed quite nicely considering that I am pregnant, living far from family and close friends, and about to move again. It helps to have a very supportive husband and some friends, though. Thank God for computers, too, because these message boards are the best ways to connect.
I applaud you for being able to talk your way through panic attacks. I'm trying to do more of that when I get anxious about something. For instance, the other day I wondered why a friend hadn't written or called me back. I felt a little dismayed that maybe the newfound friendship wasn't as strong as I'd thought. I finally forced myself to believe maybe her cell phone really did break or she didn't get the e-mail. Turns out both were the case. :)
Today I'm listening to my NPR, crafting, and packing. The packing is just looming over my head--so much to do, but I've made so much progress.
I read briefly about what Jan is having done today. I will keep her in my prayers. Get well soon, Jan!
Kendra
Kendra,
Besides the pregnancy we have a LOT in common! I have been diagnosed with GAD and depression (my depression though is of the Major variety) and I had just moved last year away from friends and faily and am facing another move by January. I have to say God bless you with being pregnant and going through all this too! So while being pregnant you can't take meds to help you right? You will certainly be on my prayer list! Make sure you don't get to feeling like He-Woman and lifting heavy things while packing! LOL! I have a 6 year old miracle daughter that was born after 15 years of infertility and she is my blessing from God.
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You are so sweet, Julie. I appreciate your kindness and assure you that I am taking it easy. I'm a bad nap-taker (I'll wake up with my husband and just won't go back to sleep sometimes), but other than that, I'm good! :)
Technically, I can take certain meds while pregnant. It depends on the class. For instance, if I wanted to take Zoloft or Prozac (Class B, I think!), I could. But then I would run the risk of having a jittery baby at birth. I just don't like the thought of that. So, my view was I would try to go unmedicated (again) and see how it goes. If I felt badly, I would consult with my doc and decide if it was time to let the benefits outweigh the risks and go back on something.
The only problem I've had is discerning which symptoms are pregnancy-related (hormones!) and which are the GAD/depression. I tend to think it's the latter, but I've also learned that it's OK to have some of the feelings since I am so much more sensitive now. So many people have told me (without my asking) that I'm doing so well that, well, I believe them. I'm not wishing for death like I did last year when I was here in Virginia looking for a house. I'm not curled up in a fetal position crying when I hear something uncomfortable from my mom. I still get sad, and I still get mad, but somehow I think I can handle it, you know? I think my long-term therapy has helped immensely. Also, I read self-help books (mostly ones recommended by my doctor).
Sorry, I got a little winded! I have trouble trusting whether it's right that I'm unmedicated sometimes, but I have to believe that in this case, I am a healthy mom right now. I'm very aware and very open about that awareness--about my reactions and how I am working to temper them. Some days I do great, others, my husband has to keep me in check. I do this now, especially, so as not to continue the cycle in my sweet daughter. Finally, my husband and I are both adult children of alcoholics, so we're really cautious about our behaviors and how we raise our daughter. I go back and forth on the meds issue, though. Sometimes I experience a situation and think, "Ack, I need 'em." But then that passes. The issues I have with my family back home won't go away, that's for sure.
But yes, you are right--we do have a lot in common. :) God bless *you* for handling 15 years of infertility and welcoming your daughter into the world! I could use some tips on raising little girls. I'm so excited about mine and pray we have a simpler relationship than my mother and I do. Thank you for putting me on your prayer list. That's great to have church friends. My church is enormous, but I'll soon be switching to a smaller church, so I'm hoping to get to know people there.
Are you moving far away in January? I'm not moving too far away--just a few counties over. I'm excited about this move because it'll be so much quieter. Mmm. How did you best deal with moving so far away, anyway? Did it feel like you were one of the few who took that step? I sure felt like that. It was like everyone and their sister had family and friends just around the corner. Must be nice!
Well, you have a good day. I'm a little computer addict this a.m., but I'm going to try to finish this cushion for my cats. It's made from an old pillow cover I got tired of looking at. I love to repurpose fabric. I'm such a geek.
Best,
Kendra
Hi Julie,
You have answered my posts before! Thank you for coming by..
I have adjustment disorder with severe anxiety. It just started in April.
For me my worst symptom is the unreal feeling.. when I get that it makes me start to panic and it just progresses. I am am afraid that I am going crazy every day... that their is something more wrong with me.
I was doing well for a while but last week I really feel apart.. I really did think I was going crazy with the unreal feeling. I 'have been having spells of it but it hasn't lasted...
I am actually going to see my pdoc in about an hour to talk about this and my meds.. I'm on lexapro and klonopin. I think that my lexapro is too high 30mg and making me lethargic and my klonopin .25mg is too low, I think that I have built up a tolerence.
I am scared to go to the pdoc, it just means that this is real and that I have to deal with it..lol
have a good day!!!!!
Kendra,
I too came from an alcoholic family! But by the grace and mercy of God they healed and are now in recovery body and Spirit.
Moving away from them since they became so healing for me was hard. But the Lord just had us in the Palm of his hand. Everything just fell into place! The company my hubby got a job with moved us at no cost to us and came and boxed everything up and gave us a months allowance to get a house and it just all fell into place.
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Heather,
First let me say your twins are sSOOOO cute!
They must be a handful in themselves!
I am glad you are going to your pdoc and I am proud that you are the kind of patient that can talk to her pdoc in a proactive way. That's what we HAVE to do. We know what this medicine is doing in OUR bodies! We feel the side effects the way it makes us feel or not feel the way it interacts with other meds and the way it controls or doesn't control our symptoms. The pdocs, just write a script hoping this will help. If we don't give them feedback they take it as fact that the med is working as it should and all is well.
It is important to write down questions or concerns and take it with you to your doctors appointment. Put it in your purse or pocket. With a pdoc and most general practictioners now days you only get 15 minutes and in that sparse amount of time you have to get everthing you have noticed since beginning the med (usually a month or more) said and explained! Having a written list you can check off things talked about. I have even cut off a doc when he went on too long about one thing and said ok how about this and went on to another question. ( he was astonished but I didn't have time for his wanderings)
Right now I have a female pdoc whom I love. Unfortunately for me she is 20 weeks pg so soon I will be losing her to motherhood but I certainly can't begrudge that at all! She really listens to me. I don't know if its because she is pretty young (in her mid 30's) or if it's because she is a woman. Maybe both. But she knows when I say hey I am not ok, that I am REALLY not ok. She also knows that going IP is a last ditch option for me that I cannot stand. Therefore she tries really hard to work with my meds to keep me from having an incident that would cause me to go IP. I have Major Depressive Disorder. I also have GAD and SAD and they can trigger a Major incident.
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Jan you great big Sweetheart! For all you do for me over at DID/MPD much hugs and love!
All My Love and Prayers,
Julie
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