hey..was wondering if you guys could..

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Registered: 03-27-2003
hey..was wondering if you guys could..
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Thu, 09-29-2005 - 5:43pm

help calm me down and help put things into persp. for me..so i don't compl. lose my mind. :(

i've had some misfortunes u can say..alot..and they have added up. Losses of friends, and now some finacial twists and turns. It has been a really rough month ..very rough..and i need some guidance, words of wisdom and some grounding.

first can alot of stress make your anx. go up?

b. can someone remind me that i'm not alone..

c. i lost my cell phone..and will be loosing the tv/cable..very soon..i managed to save the net..just today..so this has all rattled me to bits..for the tv was my escape, the cell was my protective thing when i was venturing about with the agora...now..i have or was fighting with this sompany for weeks..and that along with the thought of loosing all commun. got me, in fear of being in total darkness and totally alone...amongst other things. Now..i just have the net..thank god..i'm happy..but can someone show me its gonna be OK without the tv, the cell? and that i'm ok?

d. my parents are very negative..and still to this day at age 30 their words etc hurt.

i feel like i've been thru a whirlwind..i guess i kind of have..and i want to slow down..i need to..

tyia

((hugs)) jen

sorry its been long..so much..and sometimes i don't want to talk..wich is bad..i know.

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Registered: 10-17-2004
Thu, 09-29-2005 - 7:38pm

(((((Jen)))))


First, I'm sorry for all you've been going through!

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Thu, 09-29-2005 - 8:05pm

Thanks Mel ((hugs))

I thought i'd check the board out before laying down. All this has been hurting my sleep at times, last night one of them...so i will see if i can stay awake for chat..

As for the net/tv/cable..well my parents unexpedidly (sp?) decided to stop helping me with the rent here, for i am on odsp. So my rent jumped up by 200mth..Then my provider wants/wanted the latest bill payed by tom. or theysaid i'd be cut from all. Well i fought this for weeks..:( for i had just paid them on the first. Long story short..they want the newest bill..which id on't have the money for .. They already cut my cell..on the 15th..next aka tom or the next day latest is net and tv. :( :( i fought..i complained..did nothing. I just don't have that money now. plus they have added on fifty bucks to what i owe to restore my cell phone ..grr :(..So..i just can't do it finacially at all.

finally found a way to get net that i can do now..and have no matter what...It'll take me a year now to pay them off for they told me they will charge me for 2yrs of my cell plan i broke, plus one month of net, and one month of cable starting tom or next day if i don't pay...plus they said IF i ever do get to pay off it all its another 75 charge to reactivate tv. So blah..not good.

thank u for telling me/reminding me i'm not alone..ty for all..

i'm off to layd own..and enjoy some tv for abit..for no more soon..very soon :(..

Thanks again..

will try like i said to make chat..

and will keep posting..

((hugs)) a worn out jen

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Fri, 09-30-2005 - 1:55am
Jen- ALL of the things that have happened to you
recently would give ANYONE anxiety!! I have had to deal
with loss recently also--- it is very hard!! Remember the
good times, pray- if you do, try and do some things you
like to do!
I had agoraphobia and know how terrible it is---
my suggestion is if you don't have a therapist get one!! If you are not
on meds- get some!! Also try EVERYDAY to fight the fear and
venture out of your safety zone and little bit--- add some
distance each day!!! YOU CAN GET OVER THIS I DID!!
I was unable to drive or go out I am now doing things I never
would have imagined!! THERE IS HOPE!!
A good therapist is the key to helping you find the strength to
fight this fear!! I cannot stress this enough!
I hope that this has helped you! you can email me if you
need anything or want to talk! Take care, Judy
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Fri, 09-30-2005 - 7:32am

I'm sorry to hear this, Jen. With all these increases in costs, maybe you should set some goals to get into less expensive housing, cell & net plans. I have had to do many of these things in my lifetime to keep afloat. Finances change & though it's rough for us with anxiety, we have to make adjustments to our circumstances.


What's the status on your relationship with your parents? Do you have any other support systems? I guess I got the feeling from what you wrote, that you depend on your internet access & cell for some support. TBH, I would be a basket case without my 'net. However, since I moved from my home of 50 plus years, I have gotten to know my neighbors. I don't feel alone anymore. I have folks all around me, that when things get tough, they'll help me out. In spite of technology, we all need *real life* contacts. That will never change.


Please keep safe. Post anytime with your concerns & anxieties. This is still a good & safe place to share. We want the best for you. Good luck! (((hugs))) jan

 

 


 



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Fri, 09-30-2005 - 3:15pm

Thank you all.

I am on meds. I am suppose to raise my dose up..and am going to tom. as for a therapist..as i had talked with my doctor prev. before i am able to sit down and GO somewhere i need to reduce the anxiety. hence the med increase..yet..with this stresor now added on..its so hard.

btw..i was on a low plan..nothing special at all..but due to the unexpected stopping of my parents support for rent, AND more imp. the company whom are NOT nice and whom are the ones at fault , is why i am stuck finacially to keep all going. If i had x amount i would be fine..but i don't. And my plan was 85 for all a month.

I'm a mess still cuz i'm still worried and scared..but i will be ok.. :(

i just contacted ODSP and they are seeing if they can find out if anyone in ontario here/ottaw can help me cover these stupid charges to resume my services..i'm praying to God..

will hear soon..

Thank you,

jen..