another flight

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Registered: 05-12-2003
another flight
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Mon, 10-03-2005 - 9:27pm

first of all i want to apologize for not posting as much lately. I feel like im being selfish posting about my own anxiety when i barely ever reply to others' posts. I've been so incredibly busy lately, that i just dont have time to do the things i enjoy doing...i mean i enjoy being in school, but its nice to have free time to chat online and read posts :) it just seems like there aren't enough hours in the day.


anyway, im flying home to chicago on thursday and im terrified. i know i've posted about this before, because i do fly often...as often as i do it though im still scared as heck. i dont even get panic anymore when i get on the plane, its just this feeling of doom that follows me around for weeks before the flight. All i can think about is the flight crashing, and me not making it to my destination. i just dont know how to stop this negative thinking :( I'll never stop flying though, because i have to do it in order to keep in touch with my family, but i feel like its such a struggle every single time. and since i do fly every couple of months i feel like i spend a significant portion of life carrying these negative/scary thoughts around with me. when i try not to think about it and tell my self i have nothing to be scared about i feel like im jinxing my self, if that even makes sense!


anyway, i just needed to vent.

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Mon, 10-03-2005 - 9:38pm

Hey Mia,


Don't apologize for not posting. We all know that you are busy and we still love ya!


You know everything that I could say to you.. positive self talk and all that BUT you know this and i don't need to tell you that.


Of course we are all here for you to vent.... and to reasure you that you will be FINE and I'm sure that the trip home will be just what you need.. I know you haven't been feeling great lately so the change hopefully will be good.


how long are you going for?


{{{{HUGS}}}}

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Registered: 05-12-2003
Mon, 10-03-2005 - 10:29pm

thanks Heather :)


Im going home for the weekend, leaving thursday coming back monday. Im excited about it, it should be a nice change of scenery, even though im going to be studying most of the time. this past week has actually been better for me, but i cant wait to see my mom :) all i need is to get over this hump that is the flight. blah

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 10-04-2005 - 12:09am
Always good to hear from you, Mia. I know how the busyness of life gets in the way. How is the new job going? I will keep you in my T&P's on Thurs. I know you'll do just fine, but we'll reassure you, anyway. That's our job. Have a great time! Good luck! (((hugs))) jan

 

 


 



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Registered: 07-21-2004
Wed, 10-05-2005 - 12:54am
Hey Mia!
I am with Heather and Jan, I know everything will be fine, you are such an inspiration to us all. I can't wait to hear all about your visit with your family.
You are doing GREAT, sweetie!
I too will be thinking of you Thursday, and my prayers will be with you too!
Have a wonderful time with your mom and family!
Love,
shasta
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Registered: 04-09-2003
Thu, 10-13-2005 - 4:03pm
Hey... :) I think you should be proud of yourself for doing it inspite of fear or anxiety that u feel... i did not get on the plane in the last 5 years... and i never was really in favor of them anyway...
SO Congrats on doing it despite of anything
u know what they say... brave people are not the ones that are not afraid but the ones that doing what needs to be done despite of fear.. :) so i think u r doing great...
I am new on this board but will post later.. :)
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 02-01-2006 - 10:12am
Where oh where are you Mia? How'd the flight go? I for one have been worried since we haven't heard from you. Please give us an update. Miss ya much! (((hugs))) jan


 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
Wed, 02-01-2006 - 11:57am

I saw this post and I thought Mia was back!!

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Wed, 02-01-2006 - 12:25pm
I did the same thing... DARN IT.. we miss you Mia!!!!!!
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Registered: 05-12-2003
Wed, 02-01-2006 - 2:25pm

Hey Jan, thanks for thinking of me! I miss ya'll too! Im sorry i haven't posted in such a long time :( i dont really have an excuse except for i wasn't in the mood...i can't really explain it, i guess i just needed a break from ivillage or something.


anyway, things here are going alright. Im waiting to hear back from the PhD programs I've applied to for next year, and im searching for a part-time job while working on my thesis. my anxiety has been really under control, which is a great thing.


I am really going to try to make an effort to post more, I think sometimes when i go through an non-anxious period i tend to forget about the whole thing, but of course, you guys have helped me so much in the past, and i would like to help others in return too if not just listen, ya know what i mean?

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Registered: 05-12-2003
Wed, 02-01-2006 - 2:26pm

aw shucks, you guys are so cute! im back im back, dont worry :) i was just being lazy about posting and checking in and then it kind of escaped my daily routine.


Sheriann, im so happy to see you are a cl!! congrats, Im sure you're so great at it! how is school going??

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