another flight
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| Mon, 10-03-2005 - 9:27pm |
first of all i want to apologize for not posting as much lately. I feel like im being selfish posting about my own anxiety when i barely ever reply to others' posts. I've been so incredibly busy lately, that i just dont have time to do the things i enjoy doing...i mean i enjoy being in school, but its nice to have free time to chat online and read posts :) it just seems like there aren't enough hours in the day.
anyway, im flying home to chicago on thursday and im terrified. i know i've posted about this before, because i do fly often...as often as i do it though im still scared as heck. i dont even get panic anymore when i get on the plane, its just this feeling of doom that follows me around for weeks before the flight. All i can think about is the flight crashing, and me not making it to my destination. i just dont know how to stop this negative thinking :( I'll never stop flying though, because i have to do it in order to keep in touch with my family, but i feel like its such a struggle every single time. and since i do fly every couple of months i feel like i spend a significant portion of life carrying these negative/scary thoughts around with me. when i try not to think about it and tell my self i have nothing to be scared about i feel like im jinxing my self, if that even makes sense!
anyway, i just needed to vent.



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Thanks, Heather!
I had a chance to catch up on some post and saw that your boys are sick, im so sorry to hear that :( I can't find the original post, so i dont know exactly what the problem is, but im sending tons of positive thoughts to you and your family. It sounds like you are really handling all this very well, you should be proud of yourself!
(((Mia))) I'm so happy you checked in!
Sheri Ann
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