Sheri Ann ... Not a clue what day it is
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| Wed, 10-05-2005 - 3:33pm |
I mean that seriously. I swear my meds are not working, the lithobid. Mania has been striking more often than usual and my memory is shot!! It's been really bad since the hysterectomy but not this bad. I remembered at 6:50pm last night about the chat (it's 7-9 my time, mst) and by the time I finished watching my show at 7 I'd forgotten until this morning. I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm sorry I'm not reliable as of late, I'm thinking maybe I should step down : (
My talk with my friend went well. EVERYTHING she had to say was totally stupid. She thought my feelings were going to be crushed and I had to do all I could to keep from laughing at her. She told me that she thought I am vain. Well DUH!!!!! Of course I am, always have been, It took her 20yrs to figure that out! That was why she lacked support for me during my BA. I told her that while some of that was vanity, most of it was emotional. I had to explain to her that even though my hysterectomy seemed necessary and in ways it was but it was still elective. Thankfully it worked and made me feel better physically after I healed. Well this is similar, I hated what I saw in the mirror, it depressed me so I wanted it fixed. Both surgeries elective but much needed, make sense? She still doesn't agree with what I did but understands now. I thought she was going to have some serious stuff for me and there really wasn't any. Oh Well, We're back on tract so that was the main point and goal.
I had my 1 month post op on Monday and things are pretty good. Overall I'm on track with the exception of the areola complex on the one side. He was able to remove some of the scab and there is healthy pink tissue, I'm excited about that but being cautious as there is more scab where the tissue is not totally healed yet so until I see the whole thing looking the way it should I'm going to remain cautious. This is day 22 of being a non smoker and if I do say so myself, I HATE IT!
My vacuum blew up on Sunday! I'm now deciding on my 4th vacuum in 7yrs!!! I kill them too quick. I think we're going to buy a Dyson. Part of my problem in buying it is my mania, dh just thinks it's about the money which is sort of true but not totally. I've wanted a Dyson for a while now, told him ages ago that when the Hoover kicked it that Dyson here I come, lol and now it's here and I'm stalling. I hate this, If I'm going to be manic like this I'd rather just dump the pills. What's the point if they don't work!?!?
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST
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Sorry you're down in the dumps about the meds. I really wanted to chat with you last night, what a space cadet you are! I'm like that myself. I start cooking Ian lunch and forget I even turned the stove on - go figure! Thank heavens for smoke detectors, ours has been going off alot lately! Don't you dare step down! You are one of the reasons I came back to chat again & again. You always make me smile & feel welcome. YOU WILL GET THRU THIS. It seems to be related to the surgery somehow, so coincidental at least. Keep in touch! Happy to hear about your friend. Nothing wrong with being vain :)
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
Thank you Sheri Ann. This all started before my surgery but the process was starting so could be, I don't rule anything out anymore.
You can always reach me via email angeladizkittiez@aol.com as well as AIM
I also have MSN messanger dd0416ak
I know it's not the same as chat but it is another way. I am in la la land lately.
Thanks for understanding : )
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
Hysterectomy & Alternatives
Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST
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Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
Danielle,
DON'T STEP DOWN... no way girlie!!!
I'll email you later of tomorrow when I get a chance.. I have been so busy this week, but I haven't forgotten you.
{{HUGS}}
Sending you hugs! love, shasta
in awhile! if you are stressed it is worse!
Vain is cool better than self conscious---
I hope that someone can help regulate your meds
and your moods for you!!
Why leave the chat CL job you are great at it!
Just hang in there you will be fine soon we all
want you to stay--- feel better soon! Judy
Danielle, I know I'm rather new here but I would sure hate to see you leave chat because sometimes you forget.......Heck wait till you're my age then you'll know what forget is really about. LOL These ladies here seem to think an awful lot of you and I would like the chance to feel that way about you also. Sending healing vibes and good thoughts your way.
Keitha
Thanks Heather, Look forward to hearing from you.
Hugs Hugs to you Too!
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
Hysterectomy & Alternatives
Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST
"No heaven will not ever Heaven be; Unless my cats are there to welcome me." --Unknown
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Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
OMG, You are all just the sweetest, I think I might cry. It feels good to know that ya'll feel I do a good job even though I've been so MIA lately. My brain farts lately are slow but I know on days that I just don't want to move you all are the reasons I get up and go to chat. Surgery day was a Tuesday and I was there, not long but I showed up and it's because you all mean so much.
Thank you for being so kind, supportive and caring.
MANY MANY HUGE HUGE HUGS TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
Hysterectomy & Alternatives
Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST
"No heaven will not ever Heaven be; Unless my cats are there to welcome me." --Unknown
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Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
I am making alot of lists lately. That is something I always do, but I have to write a list of what I want to tell someone when I phone them. OMG!
Oh Jan, Thanks for the laugh. I'm glad I'm not alone on the vacuum murder spree! I'd bet anything we're going to buy the Dyson tomorrow. Dh is off, He & I both want it very much and darn my house needs a serious vacuum job. Between the kids & the cats it's horrible looking and now my dustbuster is dying too!!!!! ACK!!!!!
You're probably right about this being stress related. I do think some of it is my meds. I know they are not right. I know breakthrough is normal but this is ridiculous! I just marked my calendar up for chat every tuesday this month. I look at my calendar at least 5 times a day, OCD peeking through on that one. I do the same thing with writing things down and I have to do it that moment because if I don't I WILL forget. When I chatted w/ my friend the other day I wrote down the things that she had complaints about so that I could have a way to remember when dh got home from work. It's just total craziness. Guess it's a good thing I don't forget to pick my son up from school, lol
Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
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