Sheri Ann ... Not a clue what day it is
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| Wed, 10-05-2005 - 3:33pm |
I mean that seriously. I swear my meds are not working, the lithobid. Mania has been striking more often than usual and my memory is shot!! It's been really bad since the hysterectomy but not this bad. I remembered at 6:50pm last night about the chat (it's 7-9 my time, mst) and by the time I finished watching my show at 7 I'd forgotten until this morning. I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm sorry I'm not reliable as of late, I'm thinking maybe I should step down : (
My talk with my friend went well. EVERYTHING she had to say was totally stupid. She thought my feelings were going to be crushed and I had to do all I could to keep from laughing at her. She told me that she thought I am vain. Well DUH!!!!! Of course I am, always have been, It took her 20yrs to figure that out! That was why she lacked support for me during my BA. I told her that while some of that was vanity, most of it was emotional. I had to explain to her that even though my hysterectomy seemed necessary and in ways it was but it was still elective. Thankfully it worked and made me feel better physically after I healed. Well this is similar, I hated what I saw in the mirror, it depressed me so I wanted it fixed. Both surgeries elective but much needed, make sense? She still doesn't agree with what I did but understands now. I thought she was going to have some serious stuff for me and there really wasn't any. Oh Well, We're back on tract so that was the main point and goal.
I had my 1 month post op on Monday and things are pretty good. Overall I'm on track with the exception of the areola complex on the one side. He was able to remove some of the scab and there is healthy pink tissue, I'm excited about that but being cautious as there is more scab where the tissue is not totally healed yet so until I see the whole thing looking the way it should I'm going to remain cautious. This is day 22 of being a non smoker and if I do say so myself, I HATE IT!
My vacuum blew up on Sunday! I'm now deciding on my 4th vacuum in 7yrs!!! I kill them too quick. I think we're going to buy a Dyson. Part of my problem in buying it is my mania, dh just thinks it's about the money which is sort of true but not totally. I've wanted a Dyson for a while now, told him ages ago that when the Hoover kicked it that Dyson here I come, lol and now it's here and I'm stalling. I hate this, If I'm going to be manic like this I'd rather just dump the pills. What's the point if they don't work!?!?
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST
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Danielle,
OMG! Been there done that!
Forgotten chat, AND left my dd at school!!! LOL
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Thank you Mel. I just feel like if this is how my meds are going to work then why bother. No I have not stopped taking them and won't w/out talking to my p/tdoc but it's a struggle. The memory thing is so annoying and my moods are erratic. I'm in a pretty good mania today, done way too much for 1 person in a day. I'm fighting to stop before I hurt myself.
Thanks again {{{Mel}}}
Hugs & Prayers,
Danielle
Hysterectomy & Alternatives
Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST
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Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
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