I can't take anything more
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| Wed, 10-26-2005 - 6:31pm |
I am having a really hard time right now. I got back from the hospital stay on the 10th and on the 18th my DH left to go to TN for a job. He will be gone for almost 8 weeks before we are supposed to move up with him. I wasn't ready to be let out of the hospital, I knew i needed more days in there, but now I have to face all the household chores and bills by myself, and DH left me to have to put off ALL the bills until he can wire me some money...... in the mean time our account is now a -400.00 because of the bank picking up a check DH wrote about 3 weeks ago... ARGHHHH and my insureance wouldn't pay for a solid months worth of my meds from the hospital. So I officially ran out of my meds this morning, I have no meds but my ativan. my house is a mess my daughter isn't helping and I had to go through her birthday (oct.22nd) and mine (yesterday) with no money so I couldn't even get my dd a birthday card let alone a present of cake I tried to make a homemade cake from our ingrediants but I don't even have sugar.......I am so down all I do is holler at her and stay in my bed this is the first time I have gotten on the computer in like 4 days, and as soon as I get finished typing I'm retreating back into my room..........
ladies I am so lost and I just don't know what else to do. I really and fighting hte urge to call my mom to come and get my DD and just forget it...............

I'm so sorry things aren't working out for you. The 22nd was my sons birthday, too. Could you possibly go to your moms along with your dd?? That way you would have some help for both of you. It's hard when our spouses change jobs, I know, we've been there ourselves. Is there a soup kitchen or a food pantry at a local church?? I know we have Catholic Charities in CT & they pay for meds and give gift certificates to local stores for food, etc...it isn't for only Catholics & I don't even think it's affiliated with one particular church, but I do know alot of people who have gone their for assistance. Maybe you could call your local county welfare office for assitance or a county health dept. You may have already tried all of the above, but I'm hoping you can find someone to help. It's no fun being all alone & trying to face all this. Don't stress about the $400, the bill will still be there when he gets paid. It's not going anywhere. If you don't pull yourself together alone, will dh return home to help? If he does, does he have work there?? I sure hope this works out for you.
Hugs,
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
I am very sorry, Diana. It seems that you are understandably stressed out. I think that Sheri Ann gave you some very good ideas. Do you have a friend or family member that can help you make phone calls or assist you in caring for your dd? This would just be temporary until you feel better.
As for the meds, you need them. Call the patient care representative @ the insurance company & ask about your prescription benefits. Call your doctor & ask for samples to get you through. He knows that you need them & generally samples are there for cases such as yours. Call your local mental health center. Look under county offices in your phone book. They can help you or direct you to an agency that will.
Finances are really scary. But they will have to wait until your dh can wire the money. In the meantime, call your creditors & explain the situation. I have been in your exact situation. It is very easy just to stay in bed & avoid confronting the issues. It may feel better temporarily, but the problems have a tendency to just get bigger.
Do not think about harming yourself in any way. That would be a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Things will get better. You would leave your family in the devastating posistion of facing life with you in the grave. They will never get over it. If it's peace you want, there is no guarantee that after we die, we find any peace @ all when we take our own lives. Just the fact that you're still talking about your worries, tells me that you have hope in your heart. Call the doctor, go to the ER, call a hotline(1-800-SUICIDE) & get help. Let us know how you're doing. We care. We want you to feel better. Sending P&PT's your way. (((hugs))) jan
A lot of us know how you feel, Believe me! YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
I was reading your bio, and saw your website too. It is really special.
I can see that you are a very pretty,smart,articulate,caring person,mother & wife.
I loved the doll that was made for you, and I totally love the name 'Cadence'!
I think it is just so cute!
(I have 'Cadence' on my girl's name list, if me & dh have kids ever!)
Please visit us more often, we are always here for you to post to, and PLEASE do not hestitate to use the resources that Jan & SheriAnn mentioned, as well.
We Care so much!
Please let us know how you are doing tomorrow,k?
God Bless! <3 Love, shasta
Edited 10/27/2005 12:47 am ET by shastagold
((((Diana)))) the ladies have pretty much covered all the things you can try to do to take care of you and your DD. Just remember you are not alone I think most of us have been where you are at one time or another in our lives. This life of ours is worth living and in time you will again realize that. You take care of yourself and stop by here often to let us know how you are doing we do care and understand.
Keitha
Diana, come on over to chat!!!
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann