Does anyone feel like this?

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Registered: 09-11-2005
Does anyone feel like this?
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Wed, 11-02-2005 - 10:38am
Hi Everyone-
I have not been on for awhile.
I feel as if my symptoms are coming on more often now. I try not to think about it, but it is constantly on my mind.
I was wondering if anyone else had these symptoms. I will all of a sudden just feel out of it, and get really scared. I will get strange headaches, arm pain and start to cry. I worry that my body will just shut down and I will collapse.
I started to take Xanax, but for some reason I can still worry.
I kept thinking there were things wrong w/ my body but my Dr. dosen't think so.
I am having a hard time believing its panic and anxiety when I feel so out of it. I am not scared of any particular thing. It just comes on in any situation and I freak out.
I have gotten to the point where I don't want to go anywhere. This dosen't fit my personality. I am outgoing, love to go places, and now I'm scared.
Please help!!!!
Thanks, Donna
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Registered: 09-12-2005
Wed, 11-02-2005 - 6:19pm

Hi Donna,

You are not alone! I too have experienced this (not so much the pain, but the other symptoms you talked about).I am 41 and suffered with this for a very long time, but last year it got different, (more intense) so bad I was off my "stick"!! I ran to my doctor, I was in such a state. He suggested medication which I was so afraid of taking, I told him that I couldn't take anything that would make me a zombie as I had too much to do, I have alot of people that count on me and I have to be able to function. I took the perscription for Clonazepam and had it filled, it was a friday. My husband's work keeps him away from home, so he really had no idea just how bad I was feeling, but when he came in I just let it all out to him, and he saw it first hand. All weekend I was so afraid to take the pills, I would just pace, finally he said "for God sake just take them!" "I am here and I won't let anything happen to you!" I did, and happy to say that they have been working wonderfully for me.
I still have times that is will come over me, not as intense though, but now I know and understand what it is and I just talk myself out of it.
So hang in there, maybe you haven't found the right meds for you. It may sound silly, but I find talking myself (to myself naturally) through it, helps. I know after this many years that I am not going to collapse, that was one feeling I felt that my legs would just give out. Another was that I couldn't breath but I am still breathing! Another I am not going to be able to swallow, but I do. So I know I will get through, and you will too, my dear!!
Take Care Fergie

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 11-02-2005 - 6:39pm

Hi, Donna! It's always good to hear from you but wish it was under better circumstances. I have BTDT. Honestly! When the anxiety got so intense, I was convinced I was being reduced to a speck. Like I was nearing a total *fade out.* It makes me scared even to think about it now.


Like Fergie, I was afraid of so many things. I felt the world was on a tilt & feared falling. Thought I would choke if I tried to eat.

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 11-02-2005 - 6:41pm
Nice to see you posting, Fergie! You have much insight & experience to offer. Please don't be a stranger:) Keep up the good work! (((hugs))) jan

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Registered: 09-12-2005
Wed, 11-02-2005 - 8:41pm

Jan

Thanks Jan, I just know from experience that it helps to know that you are not alone and "losin" it! It took along time, but I am in a better place know.

Fergie

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Registered: 09-11-2005
Thu, 11-03-2005 - 9:23am

Hi Guys-
I just wish I knew why this has suddenly happened to me.
I always feel "weird" almost flu-like, so then I start to think maybe its something else and my Dr's are all crazy! I want my life back!!!!!
I am however trying to find a hobby. I realized that work and grad school consumed my life. Besides that I was just sleeping and eatting(at the office). I'm trying knitting, haha, not very good but its a start and scrapbooking(addicting). Anyone have any other suggestions send them on.

-Donna

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Registered: 05-12-2003
Thu, 11-03-2005 - 1:51pm
Hey Donna, I know you've already gotten some great advice and I just want to reiterate what you've already heard. feeling out of it is certainly a sign of anxiety, its in the textbooks it's called derealization and I know a lot of people on the board struggle with those feelings. Also, it is possible to still worry while taking xanax. xanax does not reduce worry, it reduces the physiological responses associated with worry....so that means you can feel physically calm, but still have anxiety. You might want to talk with your doctor about going on more long term medication such as lexparo, before the anxiety takes over your life completely. I hope things get better for you soon, you just need to take action sooner rather than later. please keep us updated on our progress.