left alone for 1st time & i did it!
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| Sun, 11-06-2005 - 1:52pm |
I'm not sure if I already posted this, but if I did, I can't find it so I thought I would post it again. Every other week, I plan on letting John (dh) leave me at therapy for the hour and picking me back up. Each appt I "chicken out" and won't let him leave me alone, so the poor guy sits in the waiting room for the entire hour with Ian, our 4 y.o. son. Last appt, he left, and although I was as anxious as anxious can get, I made it through the hour. Of course I kept looking out the window for his return and held a bottle of xanax in my hand, but I didn't take one and did it! It was a big accomplishment for me. He has not left me since January, alone, anywhere except for at home. I was quite proud of my accomplishment, but am already dreading my upcoming appt on Tues. I know I need to let him do this again, to get use to the idea, but I am fretting over it. Wanted to share :)
Sheri Ann

That's great, Sheri Ann! You could've so easily just opened that bottle of Xanax or reacted to being left alone, but you didn't. Perhaps next time you can remember that great sense of accomplishment gained by handling yourself so well, and you can repeat that beautiful feat.
Congrats again. :)
Hugs,
Kendra
Thank-you Kendra. It's at times like these that I reflect on how far I have come. I remember being afraid of the shower, of stepping into the yard, etc., etc, etc... With practice, this, too will come easier. I trust my therapist 100% so I know that should be a "safe" place for me. Over time, it will be & I will look back that this, too, and smile :-)
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
Way to go! Keep pushing your limits, Sheri Ann! That hour will pass alot quicker next time! (((hugs))) jan
~*~Awesome Sheri Ann~*~
You should be so proud of yourself!! Next appointment will go just as well now that you know you can do it.
Lisa