I'm in an ugly place....................

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I'm in an ugly place....................
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Fri, 11-11-2005 - 7:30pm
I didn't select an emotionicon because I wouldn't know what to choose. Something has a hold on me, the bp, the bpd, I have no idea at all but I have been in one foul mood and swinging from happy branch, to evil branch. It's ugly. Before you ask, Yes I am still on my meds. I see the "quack" as Heather calls her on Monday.

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Fri, 11-11-2005 - 7:54pm

You are not wasting my time. You are doing the right thing by venting and getting stuff off your chest. It really helps, and I think it's great that you did. Sometimes, life does swing from "branch to branch" as you put it. It's just good that you can land here.

Best of luck. Jolie

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Fri, 11-11-2005 - 8:01pm

 

 


 



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Fri, 11-11-2005 - 8:38pm

Danielle......don't ever think you're wasting our time by posting. If that was the case I'ld probably never post for fear I was wasting peoples time. Sometimes we just need to vent doesn't matter if you say anything or not. Venting is good for the soul so vent away. I like your way of describing the up and down mood, think that's how I'll look at it from now on swinging from branch to branch. Sending good thought and prayers your way.

Keitha

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Fri, 11-11-2005 - 9:28pm

Thank you everyone for being so kind & understanding.


I think it's more than questioning my dx, I think it's actually realizing the truth for what it is. I can't fight the dx, I can't run from it anymore, not when it's staring back at me in the mirror. This cyclone that I'm in at the moment is my bp & bpd ripping me apart. In trying to deny it I've lost what little control I've had over it. I'm rapid cycling and I know it and it literally feels like being in a cyclone, just spinning and spinning and I can't stop it. Its' the Merry Go Round that

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Sat, 11-12-2005 - 1:09am

Hi Danielle, I wish I knew more to say, but I just wanted to let you know I can really relate to the feelings you described (though I haven't been following the board enough to know your story exactly). It is awful, and I hope you will be able to have at least a few moments of peace sometime soon. You'll be in my thoughts,

Rose

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Sat, 11-12-2005 - 11:00am

Thank you Rose. I think I feel a little better this morning. I crashed out on the couch around 9 last night. I always do that when dh is on 2nd shift. I can still feel some turbulance going on in my gut but hopefully it won't get the better of me today. I want to have a good day. I'm sorry you know my feelings. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I know that we all, even the normals, have these types of feelings but after days on end it's just exhausting and hard to fight.


Thanks for being here.


Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,



Danielle

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Sat, 11-12-2005 - 10:20pm

Danielle, I'm glad your day was off to a better start today. I'm sorry you're feeling so down & out. You had so much to keep you busy these past few weeks, and now it's all come to a crashing halt it seems. I'm glad your friend is better, I didn't know she wasn't recognizing people, tho. Take it easy & just ease back into things. I'm glad you come here when you need friends. It's a good place to be, isn't it? I find everyone here is so caring & understanding. I hope tomorrow is an even better day :-)

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Sat, 11-12-2005 - 10:39pm
Thanks Sheri Ann. Things are just a big old mess at this point. I'm posting on the bipolar, borderline personality

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Sat, 11-12-2005 - 11:18pm

Danielle,


Sweetie, just hang in there and know that this will pass! You WILL be ok...!!!


Love You! Hugs!

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Sat, 11-12-2005 - 11:22pm
I'll try and remember that. I'm just glad I have dh here to watch me the next few days.


Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,



Danielle

Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST


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