What am I going to do????

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Registered: 05-20-2004
What am I going to do????
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Tue, 11-15-2005 - 11:15am

I am so anxious and have several big stressors in my life right now that don't seem to be going away. We moved a couple of months ago into a new house with the assurance of our realtor that our other house would sell within a month or so. Dumb, dumb, dumb. We are stuck with both house and both mortgages. We have reduced the price on our old house 3 times already and still no buyers.

We are having major problems with our DDs kindergarten class teacher. She is just uncapable of supervising the whole class and without volunteers says she cannot get them through the curriculum she is supposed to. Well, DH and I work full-time and are unable to volunteer.

Then there's my job. I hate it and my boss seems to be trying to make me more miserable than necessary. There are a couple of other people that have complained to him about some things I have "done wrong" and come to find out they weren't done wrong, but would he take my word for it. NO. I just want to hold onto this job long enough to sell our house and re-finance our new house. Now it seems as though people are purposefully trying to make me look bad because I may've "stepped on some toes". I am almost out of xanax and have been on 600 mg of lithium for a couple of weeks now and still can't get the anxiety to calm down.

I am really at the end of my rope and can't figure out a way to get through. If I had any control over these things I might feel empowered and less stressed but it seems I have to sit back most of the time and hope things work out. That's just not how I am.

Sorry for the novel, it was either get it out with you guys our sit at my desk and cry my eyes out (I still might do that too).

Thanks for listening.

Alison

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Registered: 05-20-2004
Wed, 11-16-2005 - 4:36pm

Thanks for your advice Jan. I volunteered once in the evening copying classwork in the office. I put in for another day but the lady said they had enough volunteers for the rest of the month. Seems I'm not the only working parent trying to help. Maybe I will ask the teacher directly.

I am the worst at letting go of things I can't change. I think that is the core of my anxiety. I just wish these weren't such big life situations. I eventually get over the little stuff but the house, job, and my DDs school significantly affects every aspect of my life right now. Anyway, thanks for your support. Like Gloria Gaynor says "I Will Survive".

Alison

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Wed, 11-16-2005 - 8:59pm
Oh Alison I'm so sorry.
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