Something good for a change! :)

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Something good for a change! :)
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Thu, 11-17-2005 - 11:22am

I'm entering into day 2.5 of feeling nearly 'normal'. :) I've never felt normal for over two days straight. I don't feel funny, I'm not particularly nervous, my vision seems normal for the first time in a long time. With this anxiety I've been having sensitive eyesight where I see constant negative after-images of everything I look at no matter the lighting, lots of floaters, and trails. Now I'm not noticing that so much. I drove my kids to school today and felt so content.

Maybe, just maybe, the zoloft is finally starting to work for me. It's been over three weeks now and I'm still only on 25 mg but I'm feeling hope for the first time in the past few months!

I had an app't with a rheumatologist yesterday afternoon. He was wonderful and very helpful. He's leaning toward confirming the diagnosis of fibromyalgia but is running a few more tests to rule everything else out. He also told me that it's no wonder it's taking me so long to recover from my kidney infection back in August b/c a kidney infection takes a toll on a person's body and immune system and when you top that off with fibromyalgia, well, it makes it even more difficult. And the anxiety is another component of fibromyalgia.

So all in all I felt validated at that app't and I left there feeling as though a huge weight was being lifted off of my shoulders. It's a start, isn't it?

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 11:52am

What an inspirational post!!!


That is SO GREAT, cherish this time and if you ever fall back again then just remember how GREAT you are feeling right now.


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Registered: 05-16-2005
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 11:57am

jennifer,thats awesome news.i have been wondering about you all morning.

 

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Thu, 11-17-2005 - 2:56pm

Thanks, I'm still feeling good today! :) I'm making the most of it for sure.

And something even made me angry today and it didn't set me back at all: My step mom likes to talk behind the kids' backs about their adult lives and the decisions they make. Apparently she did that to me again yesterday. She called my mom and started in about how I'm looking to be sick with illnesses that 'run in my family' and that she doesn't believe that illnesses are hereditary but she thinks I'm obsessing on it. All because 1.) My possible gallbladder problems. I made the mistake of telling her and my dad about it and mentioning that it runs on my mom's side of the family. Well, I didn't know it ran in the family until AFTER I told my mom about my test results and she informed me.
Also my grandma on my dad's side has dealt with anxiety quite badly. And when I was sharing my experiences with her she told me that she went through the exact same things! My step mom thinks I knew about the illnesses and then decided I was sick with them.

Of course she won't say any of this to my face but it just disgusts me that she can sit in judgment like she does. And she does this sort of thing to me, my three brothers and her three kids. And we are all adults with our own families!!!!

Can u believe it?

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 7:10pm

Yes it IS a start, bluemarlin_girl. We enjoy positive updates. You have helped alot of our community by sharing this. I know the fibromyalgia may take some getting used to, but many folks have learned to live with it successfully. Good luck to you! (((hugs))) jan


PS The eyesight problems have been discussed before. I am unable to focus enough to read when I am severely anxious. I think Kevin has talked about seeing *trails* in the past. Maybe he'll come along & share. It's scary, but don't let it be.


 

 


 



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Registered: 05-16-2005
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 10:33pm

jennifer,


 

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