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| Thu, 11-17-2005 - 12:41pm |
Hello, I have been lurking on this board for a while now, and I occasionaly post. I really need some help sorting thru my anxiety. Ok I am an excessive worry wort which doesn't help my anxiety. I have been doing really well with my anxiety for few weeks now. It seems like every time good things starts to happen my anxiety gets worse almost like i am trying to defeat myself. We are currently staying with my father in-law renting out his basement, well yesterday we signed the papers on our new place which we will be moving to on 15th. I have wanted to get out of there so bad you would think I would have been thrilled but my anxiety starting to roil into a boil. My father in-law likes to burn trash in his fireplace (which includes plastic bags and pretty much anything that burns). It really bother me because i feel that the fumes are not good for us to breathe in. I have 5 year old son and the thought of us breathing in toxic fumes set me over the edge last night. ( I should add I have OCD issues involving chemical and contamination0. I had a complete panic attack to make matters worse my sister called me and needed me to watch my neice and nephew while she went to the hospital because of a colon infection. I somehow managed to drive to her house, how I do not know and stayed the night on her couch. I didn't sleep even a wink my anxiety was so bad. I tend to have severe stomache issues when I am really anxious which I am still suffering with right now. My sister is ok thank god so at least last night wasn't all bad. I am seeing a therapist and I actually have an appt with him today but I really could use some encoragement. I am feeling like I am never going to be able to get past this anxiety like its only going to get worse. How do you deal with those feelings, how do you stay positive when your feeling so scary. I really wish I could stop worring about every little thing. Any advice would be helpful I am feeling really down right now. I am starting anafril tonight its an anti-depresant not sure if it will help with my anxiety. Sorry this is so long I just needed to get it out of my system.
Thanks,
Candie

Hi, Candie! WB:) I am so glad to hear that someone is taking anafranil. It hasn't been discussed here lately & I took it successfully for panic/anxiety for a number of years. Good luck!
I think you used the right word when approaching your anxiety. *Sort.* Get rid of the stuff that isn't realistic & deal with what is. Then, allow yourself a certain period of time, say 1 hour to dwell on these fears, then move on. Keep your mind & body busy to distract yourself from the thoughts. I am glad that you guys have found a place to move. Is it a house? How many rooms? Will you be able to move & get everything straightened around for the holidays? Setting up & decorating your own nest is a
Thank you so much for your response. It so nice to be able to vent in a place where you know other people can understand. My dh although he tries cant relate with my anxiety and gets frustrated by it. We are moving into a really nice condo right near a park which will be great for my son we may even get a dog for christmas for him (he is 6 and wants a dog really bad). Unfortunatly I was unable to see my therapist today because I was so ill with a stomache ache and lack of sleep but I am set to see him next week. Thank you again for your positive support it really helps.
Candie
Blessings,
Suz
I agree 100% with Suz, burning things that arent approved it not right and you are RIGHT be be concerned. That could really be potentially harmful.
Sounds as though that move will be great. You know, we don't just get anxiety when it's something bad but also in good times to. It seems as though anxiety comes with stress, weather good or bad.
Hugs,
Ya the burning wierd things had to stop so I had my dh talk to his father and ask him not to burn anything but wood and kindling. He agreed so I am happy about that. Its a start atleast. I guess I have this idea in the back of my head if everything is just going good I won't be anxious but your right it just doesn't work that way. Unfortunatly the anxiety likes to rear its ugly head at random times. Thanks again everyone for the support I really do appreciate it.
Candie
Your right Candie, your FIL not burning odd things is a GREAT start and that kind of attitude that you have is going to help you through this...and yes unfortunately anxiety does come when it wants to...
GL
Hugs,
Hi Candie,
I hope you are doing better. I totally understand how you feel, and I completly feel your pain. I've noticed certain triggers make my anxiety worse. Maybe staying at your father-in-law's place (besides the toxic fumes), is causing some anxiety. If I were you I'd be feeling like I had to walk on egg shells because it is not my house or my immediate family. That alone could cause some anxiety. Is your husband being supportive? Maybe he could talk to his dad about burning the plastic? I have a five year old boy, as well, and I know I would be FREAKED OUT by that. You are not crazy to feel that way. Also, your sister being in the hospital, you closing on a new house, living in a temporary place and being a mother to a pre-schooler is all very stressful. It's no wonder you are as anxious as you are. I would be a wreck. I think you are doing pretty well considering the circumstaces. It's great that you reached out to the people on this board. They are very supportive and I hope you gain a lot of insight.
Best of luck to you, and write anytime. You will be ok. I promise.
Jolie
I agree you do have a LOT going on right now and
having anxiety and panic it just makes things harder!!
YES you will feel better when I first recognized what
I had the meds took awhile to work but when they did
what a relief!! When you think of something and it pops
into your head do as Jan suggested and SORT IT OUT!
I do it just doesn't matter!! a little dance I do when
I cannot stop obsessing about something! Take things
as they come and try to find time to sit and relax!
This is hard for us with anxiety to do but in time you
will learn how to relax--- just sit and breathe slowly
let your mind drift lets the thoughts come and go as you
breathe quietly you will begin to relax keep these feelings on hand!!
I go to a hynotherapist and have learned to count slowly
backwards and let the stress LEAVE MY BODY!! feel it leave you!!
Pretend you are in a shower and the water is washing all the stress out
of you!!! GOOD LUCK and I hope soon you will feel better! Judy
and POST ANY TIME YOU NEED TO!! we are here for you