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| Mon, 11-21-2005 - 11:14am |
I am 22 and have been suffering from/struggling with depression since i was 14. I've recently been hit hard, so i went to see a therapist a couple weeks ago(which i have not done for a long time) who recommended that i be treated for anxiety. It had never been suggested to me, but now that i have read a little about GAD, I can definately relate. My therapist set me an appointment to come back dec 16 and meet with a psychiatrist I'm not really in favor of drugs, but am so desprate right now...I know i need to do something. But in the meantime, I am just left waiting getting worse and worse. I feel like i tried so hard to do the right thing and ask for help and what i got was "take a number." each day that passes i feel less able to preform simple everyday tasks, I am having neck tension and headaches most of the day and worsening at night so i have trouble falling asleep...I feel self-destructive, and I'm self-medicating with alcohol. I'm eating poorly, smoking more and more, and drinking to calm myself at night. I feel so compelled to do anything to escape myself, I feel there is a battle inside that I'm not winning. I'm afraid this will damage my relationship with my husband, or my two small kids, that I'll lose my job, or become an alcoholic smoking 2 packs a day..... I'm starting to fear that the urge to escape will outweigh my will to live BEFORE I can get help. I feel like there is no hope. going to the therapist was my desperate attempt at finding help. Now i feel like, unless i really hurt myself and end up in the psych ward, there isn't anywhere to turn.... what do i do?

Welcome, Joy. I am very sorry to hear about your troubles. It's a very positive thing that you have reached out for help. That means that you haven't totally given up hope. Frankly, thinking of ending it all when there is treatment available for your depression & GAD, is scary. Call your therapist & explain what you have written here. Or, see if the appointment with the psychiatrist can be made ASAP. It is no shame to call the hotline 1-800-SUICIDE & have a professional give you some guidance. I have been hospitalized for anxiety & depression, as have others in our community. It is something that we
Do you have a regular doctor that you see? Maybe he/she can get you started on something. You mentioned having children, alot of OB/GYN docs will even prescribe meds to get you started. Don't sit home & suffer like this, go to the ER if you have to. Someone needs to help you NOW. You have your whole future ahead of you, as well as a family, and there is help for depression & anxiety!! Check your phone book for a hotline to call, having someone to talk to will help. And please come back & post, we are here to listen.
Hugs,
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
I read your birthing story & it is soooo inspiring. I would love to have home birthed my children. What a wonderful way to bring your son into the world! Was your 2nd child a boy or girl?? In your profile you were expecting. Now that you've found this group, you will get through this! If you want to come to chat, click on the more about this group link & the chat link is there. Jan also posted it in the messages today :)
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
Joy,
You have gotten a lot of great advice and as the others said, go to the ER if you have to. Maybe that would kickstart your treatment.
tomorrow but they can not prescribe meds!! I would
call your regular doc and tell them what is going on-
With all you have to handle you must find it very difficult
to keep functioning!! Alcohol is a depressant and when it
wears off you are back at square one!! I would rather take
meds so if all else fails go to the ER!! There is help out
there you just have to go to the right place--- it took me
several trips to Drs and the ER to actually get the meds
I needed!! Take care and let us know how you are! Judy