Hi everyone

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Registered: 11-22-2005
Hi everyone
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Sun, 11-27-2005 - 5:56pm

I just wanted to thank everyone for welcoming me to the boards a few days back. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving or just a great few days in general. I have felt pretty good the past few days. For one I have been off from work although I have not been sleeping too well. The past few days I have been up early to do whatever we had planned and had went to bed really late.
I have been debating on if I should contact the Employee Assistance Program offered by my employer and inform them of the troubles I have been having as of late. I had done this a few years back and it was really good. It consisted of 6 therapy visits where I was prescribed Paxil.
I just feel like a crazy person if I call them, if you know what I mean.
Anyway, I was doing good until I started reading some stuff online. See, I am a big fan of the TV show Lost. I just really started watching this season but have been watching season 1 on DVD so I can catch up. Anyway, I was just reading about the show on some forum and someone had posted some theories and it was all doomsday stuff and freaked me out.
Between that, being tired, and having to go back to work tomorrow after 4 days off....well it has all left me a bit bummed out.

Sorry if I'm rambling......

Take care!

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: mrmet
Sun, 11-27-2005 - 8:07pm

Nice to have you back. It's great that you're able to share some thoughts with the board. Your participation is most appreciated.


I wanted you to know that in spite of the anxiety & thinking about having a heart attack, you ARE NOT an idiot.

 

 


 



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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: mrmet
Mon, 11-28-2005 - 9:51am

Ditto what Jan said. totally!

I wanted to add that the other day I was having a conversation with my mom about my anxiety and fears of having a heart attack. It was then that I realized my fears have a lot to do with media attention and especially that they've been directing it at women moreso lately. So I'm constantly 'listening to my heart' as they tell me to do. My mom pointed out that I am 33 years old. Those messages aren't necessarily geared toward people in my age group but rather hers. Knowing that helps a little bit. But it is definitely a trigger everytime I hear one of those blasted commercials. I also read medical info online and decide I'm dying of some rare fatal illness. I had to make an agreement with myself to NOT go on WebMD or MayoClinic.com anymore unless it involves: 1. Something to do with my children 2. Looking up a medication. So far I've been pretty good about it.

I just want to also say that you are not crazy and there is nothing wrong with you at all. Don't ever let yourself think otherwise. I believe you can be helped and getting in touch with the employee assistance program is a great idea. Please don't let yourself worry about what others will think. What others think has no significance here. You just need to do what you have to do to get back on your feet!

good luck to you!

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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Registered: 11-25-2005
In reply to: mrmet
Mon, 11-28-2005 - 8:38pm
MrMet welcome back! 4 days off and going back to
work IS depressing!! LOL but you have panic and anxiety
so that even makes it worse- unbearable!! If you were
helped with Paxil before GO FOR IT!! Get the help you
need it is not weak to seek help if you are not feeling well!!!
Why fight the unfightable??? Come back and let us know how
you are doing!! You will get through this it is hard fighting
the anxiety actually exhausting! Keep positive things on your
mind and on the TV just shut it off! Be good to yourself! Judy