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| Mon, 11-28-2005 - 5:23pm |
no one but tim & my mom knows about my anxiety problem....i've been talking to tim about it, how i feel etc, but i bet he doesn't really understand, since he doesn't have it. so that's why i'm posting here. i don't really have a problem or question, i just want to clear my mind.
i have my dr appt next week monday. i'm still unsure about this med. while i was totally fine in oct, things are different this month. i was jittery that one weekend, shaky when signing for something, shaky talking on the phone earlier. so i really don't know what to think anymore. although, the good thing is, it hasn't been as bad as before the med. i don't know maybe if theres something else i can switch to or what, but i will definitely let the dr know how i'm feeling.
also, i have my wedding on my mind. its next sept, but i'm worrying about the anxiety getting the best of me. so i'm hoping i can get more control over this by then. on top of that, i hate being the center of attention and don't like being in front of crowds! i'm afraid i'll mess up or something. i want my day to run smoothly as possible, so i'm hoping that i can get 'normal' by then.
it helps when you have others to talk to who know how you feel because they're in the same boat as you. thanks for listening....well, in this case, reading!

Kimberly 
I was glad to listen, Kimberly. I think discussing the med with your dr. is a good idea. Not that it necessarily needs to be changed, as you are doing better, but just to hear what his thoughts are on the matter.
I can understand how you're feeling. Especially with the big day fast approaching.
I was always afraid of freaking out at my kids wedding!!!
I worried for years about this how will I get down the aisle without
falling, what do I say to people, what if I cry the self talk went on
and on!!! My daughers wedding was perfect! I was fine and happy and
enjoyed it too!! I had started Paxil a year before as it turned out and
had therapy also--- I gained so much confidence through therapy
it helps me all the time with day to day stuff!
Now about the self talk---- positive things are better!!! I can do this!
I will be fine! It is my wedding and I will enjoy it! Etc etc!
I spent all that time and energy worrying what a shame!
I hope this helps you out! Judy
Kimberly,
I can totally relate to what you are going thru about being the center of attention at your wedding! I HATE being the center of attention. What I did for my wedding was I didn't have the typical things that would make me feel uncomfortable. I didn't do the whole garter thing, or throwing my bouquet. For the cutting of the cake, my husband and I did it ourselves without the DJ announcing it. Just a couple things to make my day less anxious for me!! Hope it helps.
Cassia
thanks for the replies. i try to be as positive as i can when thinking about my wedding. its the church ceremony that i'm worried about. the reception hasn't even