So sorry I have been a stranger lately!
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| Fri, 12-02-2005 - 12:53am |
Hi Gang, I just want to say 'sorry' for being quite the stranger on the board lately.
As for a lot of ppl,This time of year is kinda hard for me.
It starts for me in October- This is when I had the p/a that sent me to the hospital in an ambulance and led me to quit my job.
Luckily, this year I tried not to dwell on that event so much, and was able to get through pretty good.
Then in November pasts, I lost my cousin (he was not very old,and it was kinda a heartbreaking situation), and one of my best childhood friends on Thanksgiving.
Then I lost my wonderful cat,Shasta, in December.
I know it sounds silly, but I never quite got over that.
So yea, It is a wonderful time of year, but there are also memories of ppl that are no longer with us. I am trying to turn this around and think of happy times with my friends,family, and my Shasta, too! :0)
Geez, You wouldn't think I would be lonely with 9 cats around to keep me company, hee hee! but still....
I have been dealing with personal issues, but I am plowing through them and everything is looking up. Yay!
I wrote my in-laws and kind of explained what I have been dealing with (physical medical problems all my life) and now p/a, agoraphobia the last couple years. Yuck!
You see, They thought I didn't like them, and that is why I didn't come to family get-togethers. This was putting a lot of stress on dh. But after I wrote them a letter, they really are trying to understand (if they think I am a nut, they haven't told me! hee hee!) Actually my Mil sent a really nice note, saying that her and my Fil missed me, but they understood, and if I ever needed anything, they were there. So that was lovely to hear!
And, Today I made a great step,Driving out towards my mom's house (where I had my last major p/a) I went 1/2 way, spent time at the dollar store, post office, grocery store, and came home, so again I was away from home for about 2 hours! YAY!
I know things are looking up. :0) And I am thinking more postively about getting out and about for xmas get-togethers. It is stil stressful and anxiety filled, but I so much want to spend time with my family and friends.
Anyhow! I miss you all, and will try to be better about posting!
Thanx for reading my book! You guys are the best!
Please let me know how you are doing, my friends!
Have a great weekend!
Hugs!
shasta

Hey Shasta,
You are doing great. Remember to take care of yourself first.
We are always here for you whenever you need it!
Big Hugs!
Shasta.....it was so good to talk with you last night I know we've all been missing you. Sounds as if you are making real progress and I know I'm proud of you for it. Writing the inlaws was a good idea, at least they are trying to understand and maybe that will help to alleviate that stress from your and hubbys life. I understand about your cat "Shasta" I had one (a blue point siameese) that's been gone for so many years now but I still find myself getting melancholy over her, she was something real special to me. I've found that whenever I now lose an animal I ask her to be there to take them in and keep them safe until the good Lord sees to bringing me home to be with them. Sounds a little crazy I know but it helps me deal with her loss. You take care of yourself and I'll be talking with you soon.
Keitha