Having a rough day
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| Tue, 12-06-2005 - 2:47pm |
Hi all,
It's been awhile since I have been around - just lurking lately. But I am having a rough day and just want to post about it hoping it will help. My anxiety is in high gear and I am going to talk about my symptoms, so be careful reading this if that's a trigger for you. I can't stop moving (bouncing my leg etc.) and I am so tired - I think that's what brought on the anxiety. Pure exhaustion. I keep a thermometer in my cubicle and it is 78 degrees in here which is not helping. I am wearing a thick wool sweater because it is so danged cold here. For some reason, being over heated aggravates my panic feelings. I have taken a couple of short walks outside which helps but I can't do that all day.
On top of all of that, I had a wisdom tooth break on Friday and had to have a temp filling put in and I have an appointment with an oral surgeon in an hour and a half which I am really dreading. I have TMJ (pretty common for those of us with anxiety,I think) and it is always worse for a day or so after a dental exam. Not to mention that I hate to even think of my impacted, broken tooth being pulled. Yikes. I have dinner plans with a friend tonight and I don't want to go but can't cancel - this is already a reschedule and I really want to see her. It's been months since we've been able to get together. At least she lives on the corner of my block so I don't have to go far. I think that, after the appointment with the surgeon, I am gonig to go home and take a nap before dinner. That should help.
OK, thanks for letting me get this off of my chest. I feel a smidge better for it. If I can make it through the next couple of hours, I think that I will be OK.

Jennifer
"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi
Try to focus on temporarily distracting yourself by enjoying your friend's company. I know it's tough when there are things weighing on your mind but just try to be in the moment.
Maybe talking to your surgeon about your anxieties can help relieve some of them. He can assure you and tell you step by step what to expect so you don't have to fear the unexpected. I had an attack during a root canal once and scared the dentist so much he wanted to stop. I said there was no way I was coming back a second time so we had to finish somehow. I explained what was happening and wished I had told him I was apprehensive before he started!
I am glad you thought to turn to us to share your concerns. That's what we're here for & it's been a long time since we saw you! WB!
It's funny that you should mention temperature in feeling anxious. Becoming chilled & shivering makes me very anxious. I have decided that it's another one of those bodily sensations I have to learn to put into perspective. It's normal & nothing to fear. I don't care to have dental work done either. I try to make my appointments early in the day, when research suggests we're more equipped to handle the stress. I hope you do get the nap. Relax & refresh. That always helps. I am sorry to hear that things aren't the best for you right now. I'm sending T&P's that things will improve. Do you have increased anxieties around the holidays, Aunt Jules? Keep in touch. Let us know how the dinner goes. It's a blessing to have good friends:) Take care. We want you to feel better. (((hugs))) jan
ooof, an oral surgeon, huh? YUCK. I would let him know how you are feeling and that might ease it? I can kinda relate in a way? I finally went to the dentist last week after 7 years! They told me i have not 1, but 5 CAVITIES, plus a broken filling! And, for my cleaning that i have to get done, its not just a basic one, but in between a basic and deep cleaning! I bit the bullet and scheduled my cavities for filling the 1st week of January. Do you have someone who can maybe go with you for support? My b/f was there with me, and he said he will be with me there for both visits for moral support, because I HATE DENTISTS. When I went in to sign in I asked them if they could gas me, LOL. Just knock me out and wake me up when its all over!
How has the rest of your day been?
Kim
Thanks for your kinds words everyone. I'd like to say that things got better but I ended up having my second worst attack ever. I went to the ER for the first time but ended up leaving after an hour. Without getting into the scary details, it was very busy and there was one trauma that came in that literally sent me running out of the hospital. I did, however, make it through the oral surgeon appointment and he was really great and inspired my confidence in him.
I have not been to see the Psychiatrist in over a year - mostly because I did not like the one that I had. I took yesterday off of work to relax and got online and found a new MD who specializes in panic, anxiety, and women's mental health issues. I spoke with her on the phone yesterday afternoon and really liked her. The soonest she could get me in is January 3rd but I am going to see my therapist in the meantime. I am going to postpone the oral surgery until after I see the Psychiatrist because I need some help deciding whether to get local or general aenesthesia. I don't like the idea of going under (it's a control thing) and I also don't like the idea of being awake because he has to remove part of my jaw bone.
Anyway, I am so glad that you all are here and thanks so much!
Jules
Jules,
I am sorry that you ended up at the ER. That is always so hard..
Good for you for finding a pdoc that you think will be a good match for you... that will help so much.
Sounds as though you are doing all that you can for yourself at this point and that is great... give yourself some credit.
Hugs,
((((Jules)))) I am so sorry your day began with the ER.
Judy