rough day, too

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Registered: 11-08-2002
rough day, too
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Tue, 12-06-2005 - 9:13pm

Yesterday, I was worked up over nothing, apparently, and had anxiety all day. Today, it was a little better, then I made the mistake and thought I could handle it and went to Starbucks and got a venti iced mocha, and now my heart is zooming. So, to distract myself I am venting here and also cleaning, lol. Went to my counselor yesterday and had a good session .. got a lot of insight. I figured another issue out: when I was married to my ex-husband, anything he would do to piss me off, I would start a fight, and it was stupid stuff. Dont get me wrong he contributed to this, but alot of it was me i think. Well, I have been with my b/f for almost 7 months now, and I figured that it has to do with the fact that him and I have never ever gotten into huge screaming fights, which is a good thing. But, when you are used to something for 7 years and all of a sudden (not all of a sudden) its a different change, you kind of dont know how to react in a way? My counselor says its kind of like damage control ... and i can see her point, i am looking for conflict, which is not good, and i know it is not. So, I guess in the last few days, I have figured what is causing my anxiety. But, when its like yesterday and today, for no apparent reason, thats the frustrating part. My counselor said that since i was able to figure out what is bothering me, means that the prozac is starting to work a bit. I just wish the rest of the anxiety would go away, but it wont. i took ativan last night to sleep, but i just hate to keep using that because its short term and i dont want to become immune to it. Like yesterday and today, i felt like I could just put my head thur a wall. Can someone just slap me upside the head or give me a swift kick please and knock me into "normal" again? It could be that I am pmsing too, because thats supposed to start on sunday.

thank you,

Kim

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 12-06-2005 - 9:40pm
(((Kim)))
 

 


 



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Registered: 01-17-2001
Wed, 12-07-2005 - 8:12am

Kim,


It sounds as though you had a great session. What an amazing thing.. to find out where your anxiety comes from. Now it seems as though you can really work on the issue at hand.


"Can someone just slap me upside the head or give me a swift kick please and knock me into "normal" again?"


If you find someone to do that please let me know!!! I could use some of that.... LOL

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Registered: 11-22-2005
Wed, 12-07-2005 - 9:12am
Hi Kim. Glad you had a productive session! I do the same thing too with the coffee. I feel like I can 'handle' a cup and then it throws me over the edge with physical symptoms that mimic an attack. Just say DECAF! :) LOL!

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Wed, 12-07-2005 - 10:14am
Oh I so know that feeling of wanting to be 'knocked into normal again'. It's such a desperate feeling and sometimes I think it makes us feel even worse. Whenever AF is about to visit me, my anxiety seems to act up even more. I'm sure that hormone fluctuations don't help us out at all.

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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Registered: 05-26-2003
Wed, 12-07-2005 - 6:28pm

Waves hi to Kim, I'm new, nice to meet you.

Judy