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| Wed, 12-07-2005 - 10:15am |
I'm sorry it's been such a long time. Things have been crazy as I know you all know.
My time in CA was happy, sad & STRESSFUL! There were 2 instances that I wanted to come home early and one was just 3 days after I got there. My mom & brother were fighting constantly and I couldn't take it. I even called dh to have him check flights for me.
Well my brother brought in some kind of stomach virus with him from Japan, He was sick first on Sunday night, then my mom on Monday night, then both of my kids on Wed afternoon, then my step father Thanksgiving night and me friday morning. For everyone except me the virus was fast moving, vomiting & the runs for about 2 hours and then just feeling wasted. My ds didn't get the runs but he was the only one. My poor dd, we were on the way to pick up Sea World tickets and then go to see Harry Potter and not 30 min from the house she began vomiting in my mom's brand new Acura TL! OMG! I was so spazzed. So we get her home, take ds to Harry Potter, he seemed a little quiet after but when we asked him if he wanted a candy bar from the store he said yes so we thought he was fine. We got to the grocery store and he started vomiting in the parking lot. He vomited longer than anyone else but never got the runs. I never had either symptoms but felt like it was going to happen. We all agree I got it the worst because there was no relief for me. That was the morning of the next major fight between mom & I.
We agreed earlier in the week that if someone got sick on friday we'd do Sea World on saturday instead but when we went to Lego Land they validated our tickets for a free entry until the end of March so she wanted us to go back to Lego Land on Sat. Well my brother wasn't on my rental car and she can only fit 3 of the 4 kids in her car so she wanted my brother to leave my 2yr old niece with me with the reasoning that she wouldn't know any better the next day. My argument was that she knows today! I refused to sacrifice my nieces so after talking with dh we agreed that if I didn't go neither did our kids. Well it was a massive fight. Mom put me in a very hard spot with my kids, tried to turn the tables to make me look like the bad guy, I was ready to go home. My stress level was through the roof plus not feeling well. In the end I let my brother drive my rental and prayed nothing went wrong. We were supposed to leave the park before dark since we got a little lost coming out of Lego Land and didn't want the same incident. Well we didn't leave on time and the 2 hr ride home took 4hrs!!!!
On Sunday before my cousin left out, before we went to Lego Land we stopped at my Grandparents grave site. What's odd is that I still have not cried. I think I'm avoiding it. I feel happy that if there is an afterlife she is now with my grandfather. I feel guilty as ever because I kept telling dh I wanted to get out to CA because she hadn't seen dd since she was 9 months old & never saw ds : ( I sent her pictures all of the time but it just isn't the same. That holds heavy in my heart. My evil Aunts & others sent flowers so my cousin and I both snipped a rose and took it home. Right now I am flattening it and then I'm going to put it someplace safe. I also have my grandmothers mother ring, She gave it to me when I was 16 and I treasure it dearly.
Needless to say that I was very happy to be home. We all agree that the visit was too long especially with having 4 kids, 8, 6, 4, & 2 in a 2br house. It was wonderful to see my brother though and I always love seeing my nieces.
The weather has been horrid here this week. We've gotten 16" of snow in the last few days, the winds have been horrible and the temps are worse. This morning I checked it was -5 but felt like -19
I was supposed to have therapy on Monday but canceled due to the winds. Icy roads & 50mph winds didn't feel like a good idea. Jane totally understood so I see her on Monday.
I'm very drained emotionally which always drains me physically. Good news, My friend is going to make a full recovery & is planning her wedding for the end of the month : )
I'm sure there is more but it's early, not enough coffee yet and this has gotten longer than I expected. I hope you are all well, let me know how you've been. I've missed you all.
Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
Danielle
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Thanks Jan. Sadly that is just the way my family is : ( But there were some good times there this time. I've just been trying to recover from it & of course prepare for Christmas. My kids are DONE! I'm so excited, lol
I'm so glad you all are here.
Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
Danielle
Host of Tuesday Night Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's Chat 7 - 9 pm MST
"No heaven will not ever Heaven be; Unless my cats are there to welcome me." --Unknown
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Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,