Ryan's surgery- Dec. 19th
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| Wed, 12-07-2005 - 6:51pm |
I went to see pdoc today and he was suprised at all that is going on...
he told me that I have every reason to be upset so he told me that I can up my klonopin if I want.. he gave me the prescription and I will fill it tomorrow in case I feel the need.
So, as soon as I was walking out the surgeons office called and said that they can get him in Dec. 19th which just happens to be my late Father's Birthday. (that is typically a sad day for me so may as well make it worse)
They will put and IV in him and sedate him, then they will take him away from me.... They won't let me hold him while he goes to sleep. I am so sad... i don't know how I will let him go...
I also didn't realize that he will be intubated while in there... MY POOR BABY!
I have no idea how I will sign the consent form, knowing their are risks. This is so close to home because my Father died after surgery.. so I associate it.
I am just sick over this and so sad.. i don't want to wait so long but its the earliest they can get him in, right before Christmas.
I know that so many people have so much worse going on and I feel so bad bit^&ing but this is my son and it is just heartbreaking.
I see my tdoc on Friday and I am happy about that...

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Sending you some hugs to you, Heather!!! I know you are totally overwhelmed right now. Just remember it's totaly normal to feel the way you fee right now. Kids are really resilient at this age. Ryan will be up and running around before you know it.
Make sure you don't try to deal with everything all at one time. Just take one thing a little bit at a time, and you'll do great. You know you can lean on us as much as you need to.
Take care!! Chrystal
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