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I NEED SOME ADVICE
| Fri, 12-09-2005 - 2:16am |
Hi, my name is stephanie i am a 20 year old new mom of a beautiful 9 month old baby boy. i suffer what feels like from everything. i think i have been diagnosed with every disorder in the book. Post tramic stress disorder, postpartum depression, agaphobia, bi-polar(which i feel like is getting worse everyday). broader line personaity disorder, and last but not least the too worst for me anxiety and panic disorder. i am married and even though me and my husband love each other alot we fight alot because of all of this and i think it is because he does not understand what is going on with me. i think it also has to do with that fact that before i had my son i was 100 lbs, getting into modeling and my self-esteem was though the roof! i was scared to o anything or go anywhere! and since my son been born i am 140 and my self-esteem went though the ground. now i can not go anywhere. i am scared of EVERYTHING. i am a totally different person. i have tried to get help but everyone has a long waiting list. and i need help soon! i just want to feel normarl again. also now it is going to be twice as hard as i have lost my insurance. i feel like if i leave the house i am going to die!!!! please if anyone has any advice please feel free to give it i am in desprate need of it!!!! thanks for letting me get that off my chest!

Hi, Stephanie! We're so glad that you found our caring community! You are NOT alone. I have panic attacks & intermittently have suffered with agoraphobia. There is help out there & you can learn to cope with this disorder.
I am sorry to hear about the insurance issue. We have others who face the same dilemma. Here's the link to low cost mental health care that may help you. http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=iv-bhpanic&msg=18092.1&ctx=4096
Hi Stephanie!
Welcome... YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
I suffer from anxiety/panic.
You said that everyone is backed up so you can't get an appt. .... when I first called my Dr they had an appt 1 month out.. I called back and told them that I couldn't wait and HAD to be seen, they got me in the next day.
If you REALLY need to, I would suggest going to the ER. They could at least get you started on something and maybe get you in sooner with a Dr.
Do you see a therapist or psychiatrist on a regular basis? Are you on any meds....
Is their any way that you qualify for a sliding scale for insurance or something? Do you anticipate getting insurance anytime soon?
Welcome Stephanie, I'm sorry your life is in such turmoil right now. Not so long ago, I was suffering as much as you are. You have alot of diagnosis, does that mean you are being followed by a doctor? I'm wondering if you are on meds since you have the bipolar diagnosis. Meds will definitely help you through this. Make an appointment wherever you can, even if it's for 2 months from now and then keep calling around for a sooner one. Is there a mental health clinic where you live? That would be one option. I know the wait times are awful, I'm going through the same thing right now. I can't even get an appointment :( Jan had some great suggestions. I was small, also, until the birth of my 4 y.o., I am now 145 lbs. I know how you feel!! Exercise is key. I've been really watching what I eat, eating more salads than anything and not weighing myself. It only depresses me. I do see a difference in how I look & feel, that is all that matters to me. Enjoy your little one, they are so precious. I can feel the weight lift off my shoulders when I'm holding mine :) Please stop by often, we understand, we've been there & still are in many ways, it's hard for someone who hasn't experienced the fears to understand what you or I are going through. Last January I wouldn't shower or leave my bedroom, I had to send my son to daycare because I couldn't take care of him while my dh was at work. I slowly improved, sitting on the front steps, getting the mail, etc... My therapist told me to stop concentrating on the bad & concentrate on the good. She pointed out how much I wanted to be a stay at home mom & told me to treat this as a vacation from work, keep Ian home, enjoy my time with him. I was so full of self pity I hadn't even thought of seeing it from that perspective. I started keeping Ian home, planned our day to do different activities, and kept my mind occupied. While it didn't get me out of the house, it did get me out of my bedroom. I have been driving the last 2 nights with my husband, I am still working on it, but I feel soooo much better. Not that the anxiety isn't always lurking, it is, but I can better control it & hope to be able to get back to work soon. Boy, I ramble alot, lol! Take care & give your baby a kiss from me.
Hugs,
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
Hi Stephanie. I can understand why you're anxious! You have A LOT on your plate. Being a mom and wife at 20 is a big undertaking. You mention that you were getting into modeling before having your baby. Is the dream gone or just temporarily on hold? That's a lot of change in a short period of time which I think would cause anyone anxiety. Weight issues are understandable too. I'm about 40 pounds heavier than I should be and I feel horrible about myself. I want so badly to get to back to where I was, then I stress out, binge on food and put myself further from my goal.
You're in good company around here...I think we can all relate to what you said. Let us know how it goes.
Hi Stephanie, wanted to add my welcome here.
Judy
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