FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER

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Registered: 03-25-2003
FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER
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Sat, 12-10-2005 - 6:32pm

Hello everyone.

Can I just say how much I wish I could have a good December just once in my life. Every December is filled with depression anxiety and panic for me. Work, well once again I've been called on the carpet for not having my line count (I'm a medical transcriptionist). I'm supposed to type so many lines an hour and I can't keep it consistently. I am 53 and I am darn sick and tired of being called in the office like a high school kid. I do the best I can...last accuracy test I had 100%. They said maybe I'm too concerned with accuracy and that's why my speed is down...uh, what? I guess I'm supposed to type 300 lines an hour and if it's not readable...oh well. Husband, well not too bad...NOW. He just got a job, a 40 hour a week job that doesn't pay that great but it will keep his butt off the couch. I've spent the last year yelling at him for not doing anything 1)to find a job or 2) to help around the house. That has stressed me out majorly. Grrrr.
My kids, are okay although they whine too much for my benefit (one is 27 the other is 17). I know I'm their sounding board so they can be decent to other people but my shoulders are getting tired and I need a break. Do I get a chance to boohoo on someone's shoulder anytime soon?

Sorry ladies I just need a soothing pat on the head and a 'There, there it will be allright", and some good suggestions on getting over the winter blahs. Thanks for being there. God bless.

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 12:57am

I am sorry to hear this. It seems to be the current theme for many of our members. The holiday season &

 

 


 



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Registered: 11-22-2005
Mon, 12-12-2005 - 4:01pm

Hi there. Janis gave you some great suggestions. I liked when you said you were doing the best you could...That's really all we CAN do. I also agree that 100% is impressive AND commendable. You should be proud of that even if they can't see it right now.

The winter weather really can put us in a tailspin...maybe it's happening to your boss as well and that's why they feel the need to gripe? Sometimes when I'm stressed because of someone else I like to stop and think "what are they feeling right now?" Are they yelling at me because they're having problems at home that no one knows about? Are their kids doing drugs? Did a family member die? Sometimes it helps to put things in perspective and know that it could just be them having a bad day and taking it out on you.

Try to do something for yourself. Hope you're feeling better!

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Mon, 12-12-2005 - 4:25pm

It sounds like you are just plain overwhelmed. Sometimes any little thing can just put me over the top. And the Holidays on top of it makes it even harder. We can be your sounding board, so complain away. I know I always feel better after venting here to the girls. Their support is awesome! Somedays I feel overwhelmed with my kids problems, too. They are 25 & 27 and they don't think anything of waking me up, 800 miles away to tell me their latest woes. I try to not answer the phone so I don't get dragged into it, but sometimes I get caught off guard. I've considered being a medical transcriptionist often, but I imagine the demand on you as high. It seems like accuracy would be most important, but I know productivity is what the care most about, sad, really. Hope we can help! Sounds like you are busy with dh & the kids & keeping a full time job. Kudos to you !

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 8:02pm

Hi Girls,

Just wanted you to know I am feeling better. I made an appointment with the EAP counselor at work and will see him Thursday. I feel good knowing I will be able to vent to someone and maybe get some positive feedback.

You know I was thinking, "what would I do in December if I had lots and lots of money?" Here's what I decided. I will check into a high rise hotel on the Ohio River (Embassy Suites will do fine), 15th floor so I have a good view. It will have to be a suite with microwave and fridge. I will watch old TV reruns, read magazines, do crosswords, and play solitaire all day. I may eat at one of the hotel restaurants or I may order room service. I will get a massage every other day. Once I week I will let one of my daughters come over and spend the day and night. My husband can come over once or twice a week. I will check out on February 28th or later, depending on the weather.

Just thinking about that gave me a chuckle. Now does anyone want to give me lots of lots of money so I can make it a reality hmmmmm?

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 12-14-2005 - 12:57am
I have no money): Do you think some rich man with panic attacks would subsidize us? Cause I really want to go too. LOL Good luck on raising the funds! (((hugs))) jan


 

 


 



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Registered: 05-20-2004
Wed, 12-14-2005 - 9:05am

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Sounds perfect. I might choose the Caribbean though if money weren't an object. Too bad it is.

Alison

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Wed, 12-14-2005 - 9:11am

Hey,


Don't forget about me... i want to go!!


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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 12-15-2005 - 11:42pm

Would it be rude to invite myself along???? I want to go, too!

Sheri Ann