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Sat, 12-10-2005 - 8:49pm

Why does it seem whenever I post the only emoticon I can find to fit my mood is the unhappy? I'm not doing real well sorry to say. I keep flitting between sad, depressed, stressed, and anxious. I went to the doctors today but they were no help at all. All they could tell me was when I see my therapist this coming Friday have them set me up with an appointment with the Pdoc. I need some relief now not next week or the week after that or whenever he may have time to finally see me. I know alot of my problem is in the last couple months Mel and I have been away from each other so much do to the problems she has to deal with in Indiana and my having to spend Thanksgiving at my parents. This is the most time we've ever spent away from each other in the 10 years we've been together. Rationally I know she'll be home as soon as she can but I'm so lonely and miss her so very much. I try to keep busy but by the time nightfall comes I'm drained from trying to keep myself up and on the positive side. I just wish I would finally have something positive to post here instead of my poor poor pitiful me.

Keitha

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Registered: 10-03-2003
In reply to: kywomyn
Sat, 12-10-2005 - 10:39pm
I'm sorry you're feeling this way.
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In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 1:07am

(((Keitha))) I am sorry to hear this. If you can, call the pdoc on Monday & ask to be put on the cancellation list. That way you may get an earlier appointment. It sounds like you do need help sooner, rather than later.


When I get into these *poor pitiful jan* spells, I allow myself just a short time to obssess about it. Then, I make myself move on. Keep my body & mind occupied. It is hard to cope without your partner, but you can count many blessings in your life. Try to focus on all the good things. We care about you. We want you to feel better. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan


 

 


 



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Registered: 04-07-2003
In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 2:19am
Keitha Think ahead she will be home soon!
When the problems clear up in Indiana then you
will be together again! Try to do somethings that
you enjoy doing, I know it is not the same without Mel
but give it a try. You kept yourself busy all day and
wore yourself out! Time to watch a movie or do some relaxation!!
You go walk up to those mountains and remember you have
done so well going to see your parents and all the other
dreaded things you have faced!! Keep believeing in yourself!
Take care! Judy
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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 3:09am

Keitha I agree with everyone else in that focusing on anything positive is a good way to help move yourself more toward where you want to be.

Judy

cl-ivhjude

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Registered: 04-18-2003
In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 7:00am

Oh, Keitha, I am so sorry you are feeling down. Do you want to chat?? You can always post on the board & maybe a few of us can make it :) If you can get yahoo messenger, alot of us are on that. A yahoo account is free. It's perfectly normal to feel like you do. When John had to leave me in the past, I felt the same exact way! What about the tree? Did you decorate it? If not, maybe you could go ahead and do that today. Have the house all decorated & surprise Mel. The Christmas tree always cheers me up. I didn't even put it in the family room, I put it in "my" room because I know how much it helps me, just sitting there drinking my hot tea & watching the lights. Enjoy your babies & know you only have a couple more days to go until Mel is home. The pdoc thing I have no idea about, I'm having no success in that dept. myself. Jan had some great ideas, tho.

I love you, Keitha.
Hugs,
Sheri ANn

Sheri Ann

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In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 3:14pm

Keitha,


We are ALL HERE FOR YOU!


Post away and use is for your support... we all love you and want you to feel better...as Sheri Ann said.. post anytime to chat and I'm betting that someone will be able to chat...


Try to keep your head up and know that "this too shall pass"


Sending Big Hugs your way!

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Registered: 10-12-2004
In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 4:58pm

Keitha I'm sorry to hear your feeling so blue. Like everyone said , Try to stay busy and think about how great it will be when Mel gets home. I've been where you are and I know thats its easy to say all this but much harder to do. Hope you get into the Doc sooner than later, but maybe its all just your being lonely and as soon as Mel gets there you'll feel much better. When will she be home? Take care and know we're all thinking of you.

Brenda
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Registered: 09-16-2005
In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 12-11-2005 - 8:02pm

Brenda not sure when Mel will be home, she's hoping to be back Tues. but alot will depend on the weather. Indiana's been getting hit with alot of snow. She calls at least twice a day and that's somewhat of a comfort but it's still just not the same. I've been trying to keep busy during the day what with the animals and all it isn't to difficult. A very good friend of mine has been stopping by and has been running me around and has taken me over to her house for a change of scenery. But it's so hard for me to be away from my home for more then an hour or two before the panic begins. I think it's the nights that are the worst for me. Usually I'ld watch movies or read but I'm having alot of trouble concentrating on anything for any length of time. If I thought going to bed early would help I'ld do that but when I do finally fall asleep I'm troubled by nightmares. It's almost like a no win situation.

Keitha