Was "What-IFing" too much too much today
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| Mon, 12-12-2005 - 3:51pm |
I almost made myself throw up I was getting so stressed out.
I have a dead end job and have been trying unsuccessfully to change my situation. I applied for a position in-house and had an interview today. The job sounded great and I was interested. The problem is that it's two steps below the level I'm at so money will pose a problem if it's offered.
My mind likes to race so I immediately jumped to that point. What if I get an offer? What if it's not enough money? What if I can't convince them to pay more? What if I don't get offered the job? What if I'm a terrible interviewee? What if I stay stuck where I am forever...and so on.
I really made myself ill.
Right now I'm trying to regain perspective and remember that everything happens for a reason.
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I just saw how I wrote the title to this post...was I stressed or what??
Edited 12/12/2005 3:52 pm ET by d_h_a_r_m_a

You really nailed it by putting it into the category of what-ifing.
Judy
cl-ivhjude
Thanks guys. Well, I managed to make myself feel like garbage for the rest of the day. I ended up getting depressed (which I think is my body's way of bringing me down from too much anxiety) and agitated. I to Target after work and thought I would relax by shopping a bit but I was too hyper to enjoy it. I got what I needed and left. Then I went home, ate dinner and walked on the treadmill. I wanted to burn off some of the energy but I was feeling so bad I could only drag myself through 30 half-hearted minutes of it. I just wanted to sit on the couch and sulk in a bag of popcorn.
I talked to my b/f later, who is SO sick of hearing about me hating my job :), and told him I was just gonna go to bed. I have no motivation and each day it gets harder to go to work.
I made it here today and am trying to make the best of it. I found out what the job pays and I will need to take a $16,600 pay cut if it's offered to me. To stay proactive, I've made a list of my expenses and how much I really need to live. I've also got a list of questions concerning overtime pay and potential bonuses so that I can try to get the number a little higher if I find myself wanting the job if it's offered.
(((((dharma))))) lots of hugs and warm kudos coming at you.
Judy
cl-ivhjude
Hi Dharma,
I am the same way.. i hope that you are feeling better!