Depressed

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Fri, 12-30-2005 - 9:57pm

I wasn't going to "bother" you ladies with my problems and feelings, when a very wonderful friend of mine emailed me and reminded me of something very important. She told me "It's OK to vent to me or anyone on the board. We're ALL here for you." And then I came on the board and read Judys wonderful post.

So let me share my sad story. I'm finding myself falling into a pretty deep depression I have no appetite and all I want to do is cry and sleep. I have these crazy notions that if I just sleep long enough when I wake up everything will be OK. And of course it isn't so the cry sleep continue, which just makes me more depressed.

I am seeing a Pdoc this coming Thursday, for hopefully a PRN medication and figured if he even has time to talk I'll let him know about this depression and I'll also be telling him that these bouts of heavy depression have occured for years and I've just assumed it was SAD I suffered. All I know right now for sure is I'm miserable and can hardly stand myself.

Thank you my friend I do feel somewhat better.
Keitha

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In reply to: kywomyn
Fri, 12-30-2005 - 11:55pm

{{{{KEITHA}}}}} ALWAYS come to the board! We all love you and ARE HERE FOR YOU, NOT MATTER WHAT!


I am happy to hear that you have an appt. Thurs.... maybe you could call and see if they have anything sooner.. I have done that. You could maybe be put on a cancellation list...


I have never suffered depression per say but I have started to experience it the deeper i got into my anxiety. It is hard to deal with but YOU HAVE to FIGHT IT, don't let yourself go. You are such a GREAT AMAZING person and you deserve to feel better.


Do you have a trigger or something going on that contributed to this? That may help you to better understand why you feel depressed and to get out of the funk?


PLEASE TAKE CARE and come to chat... ! Chat ALWAYS seems to help me.... take advantage of all of us here to help you.


Is Mel home??? How is she dealing with this, what does she think you should do???


HUGS!!!!

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In reply to: kywomyn
Sat, 12-31-2005 - 6:18am

(((Keitha))) I am sorry to hear this. It isn't unusual to have these feelings around the holidays. Besides you have had a few ups & downs that may have contributed to your feelings. Some of us realize that the lack of sunlight during the winter does effect us. Another trigger for me is lack of exercise. If I could just get out like I do in good weather, I know I'd feel better. The good news is that you recognize the pattern you have fallen into & want to change it. Even better news is that there is help & hope out there.


I think seeing the pdoc will be good. Please make a list of your symptoms so you can let him know exactly what's going on. Sometimes our actual visit time is limited & I always feel pressured

 

 


 



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Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: kywomyn
Sat, 12-31-2005 - 11:19am

(((((Keitha)))))

Boy I sure wish there was something I could say or do to take those horrible feelings away from you. I know your desperation all too well. I'm in the same boat with you (except mine is more anxiety based but I already posted about it in another thread).

I'm glad you are going to the Pdoc on Thursday. I'm sure that seems like a long time from now but definitely let him know what has been going on with you. Hopefully he can help. In the meantime you do have all of us. Never feel like you are bothering anyone here. That is exactly what this board is for. And that is what friends are for. We are all here to support eachother and we want to help and support you!

Jennifer

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In reply to: kywomyn
Sat, 12-31-2005 - 4:36pm

(((Keitha)))

Sheri Ann

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In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 2:11pm
Hey girls, I haven't been on in a while but I had a major anxiety trigger event this weekend. My best friend went in to the emergency room and ended up having to have 3 stents put in. Of course, that gets me to thinking what if that happens to me. I was doing so well with my meds and everything thru the holidays and then this happens. Woke up at 3:00 am and couldn't stop thinking about her. Then I could feel the panic mode kicking in......bummer. So just wanted to get some support again.....this too shall pass won't it. My friend is doing well, and I spoke to her last night but you know she has anxiety too. So you know what my mind is doing......working overtime. Thanks for listening. JanW
Jan
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In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 4:32pm
It is totally reasonable that you would worry about
your friend! I would also!! But she is under the nurses
and doctors care and they will help her--- so give it to
them!! YOU need to be there for her!!! Giving her positive
thoughts that soon she will be better etc!! GOOD LUCK TO HER
and YOU!! Judy
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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 5:07pm

Hi Jan, I'm glad you've been doing good, I had a feeling you were as you haven't been around as much.

Sheri Ann

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In reply to: kywomyn
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 9:07pm

(((Jan))) Glad to hear from you. I am very sorry to hear about your friend. I wish her a speedy recovery. Yesterday in the midst of a busy day, my gf called & gave me a rundown of her & her dh's health. I had a scare recently & it was too soon to hear all this. I changed the subject 3 times & I know I hurt my friend. She knows about my anxiety, but like many people, she really doesn't understand it. She thinks I can just dismiss these thoughts if I really want too. Hmm...


Anyway, I just wanted to say how I know what you're feeling. It's hard NOT to project someone else's illness on us. Try to keep it in perspective. Live healthy, good diet, plenty of exercise & the proper rest. Visit the doctor for regular check ups. What more can we do? Sending P & PT's your way. Don't be such a stranger, friend. We miss hearing from you. Hope you had nice holidays! jan


 

 


 



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In reply to: kywomyn
Mon, 01-02-2006 - 8:31am

Keitha,

Hope you are feeling better after posting, sometimes it helps to let it all out to people who truly understand.

I often feel unable to post because I think everyone is tired of hearing the venting and I rarely have anything good to post. Just feel like a whiner sometimes. But hey, that is why we come here right?? To listen, support, and care. I think we sometimes feel "bothersome" because a lot of the people in our "real" world do not understand what we are going through.

The great thing about this board is the caring and support, so keep posting and don't feel like you shouldn't.

Lisa

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In reply to: kywomyn
Mon, 01-02-2006 - 9:45am

Lisa.....Thank You. You're right everyone here is going through this in one way or another. And the outside world doesn't understand. And I do feel like a whiner. LOL I'm just so tired of feeling down. Heck I have everything I've ever wanted in life. I've got a suportive partner, I live in the most beautiful area of Kentucky, I've got animals I never dreamed I would be able to own. My life is simple yet so rewarding. I wake up in the mornings look out my window and I see God and the world he created. So what's my problem.........

Keitha

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