Okay you guys: I'm desperate!

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Okay you guys: I'm desperate!
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Sat, 12-31-2005 - 11:15am

This anxiety is really taking a toll. I am trying so hard to fight it and to live as normal a life as I can.

Each morning I wake up so uncomfortable. Chest pains, dizziness, anxiety with the hot flashes. It's too much!!!!! Of course when I go to my doctor or to the ER nobody finds anything significant. There seems to be nothing wrong with me even though it totally feels like there is. I'm in tears. I'm so done with this CRAP!!!!!!

I have been praying to God to just heal me; I've been praying for Him to take away all the discomfort, sorrow, and fear. And it seems He does here and there. But then it all comes back again. Maybe I am lacking in faith or something. I don't know.

It's reaching a point where I wish my body would decide to either get better or give up and die. I'm suffering so much. Why does panic disorder have to be like this?

What's worse: my kids need me. When my mornings are especially tough and my sweet little daughter wants to snuggle or play, I end up feeling frustrated cuz I can't do that. I'm too preoccupied with trying to feel normal. I'm too scared. And she deserves better. My 14 year old ds loves to talk to me. But I can't really focus on what he is saying sometimes and I feel just terrible about that.

If the stupid pain in my chest would just go away. And the stupid dizziness would stop, I think I could get a better handle on this. But it won't stop. It doesn't stop. I feel like I'm truly stuck and there seems to be no way out.

:(

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 9:01am

Welcome, Pauseable! It's a pleasure to see you here:) I hope that from reading past posts you can relate your symptoms to what others experience. That gives many of us

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 9:21am

Welcome! It's so nice to see you here:) I am sorry that anxiety seems to have limited your life. Give your new med about 4 to 6 weeks to achieve maximum effect. Good luck with it & let us know how it works.


You mentioned extra stress. This is something that seems to trigger many of us. Learning to deal with the stress & even get rid of some of it, does help. Please take a look in the *coping tips & tricks* folder below to see if there's something you can do to work against the anxiety. Facing our fears is possible. I have learned that once I commit to something, I try very hard not to avoid carrying through. When you say you can't finish school, have you tried taking only one class? Sometimes breaking up a big challenge into small steps makes it doable.


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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 9:28am

Hi Pauseable & welcome!!

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 12:54pm

Wow, first off I want to welcome Pauseable and ivil_monica to the board.

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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Registered: 07-21-2004
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 7:03pm

Hi Jennifer-
First I want to 2nd, your 'Welcome' to Plausable and ivil_monica. I look forward to getting to know you both! <3 I think you will find many many caring ppl here, who are going through what you are. It is so nice to know we aren't alone in this!

And Jennifer-
I have felt the exact same as you. I tried Paxil-Bad reaction. But now I am on Zoloft, I am up to 200MG and feeling some better. But if I get stressed,sick, or something happens outside my 'routine' the panic does tend to rear its ugly head. :(
But then I take more Ativan if I need too, and that helps alot! :)
I was like you on the Xanax, I would take it in the morning, and crash til the early afternoon. So I went off it in October and switched over to Ativan, which is what they gave me in the ER, it is seems to work better for me.
Everybody is different with meds, and sometimes it takes time to find the right 'fit'for you. And depending on how bad your dizziness is, the dr. might be able to give you something for that. The medicine I received is called meclizine. And I think I have only had to take it once, when I first got the prescription filled. I think the 'just knowing' that I have the med on hand, really help to ease the dizziness away. Luckily, I don't get it that often, but I totally know how you feel and where you are coming from. I hope that it goes away soon. Hang In There!
Please let us know how your dr.appt goes, It's funny, I knew when it was 'time' to finally go to see a pdoc just as you have. Keep us posted! We Care!
Love, Shasta

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Sun, 01-01-2006 - 8:13pm

Thank you, Shasta!!!!

Jennifer

"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi

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