Can anyone answer this..................

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Can anyone answer this..................
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Tue, 01-03-2006 - 6:45pm

Do you know the fine line of where you exist and where your illness does?

I've been trying to figure out where I begin and where the illness exists. Guess I just don't know who I am anymore.

I'm stuggling, somewhere within I am still fighting myself. I asked dh the other day, What is normal? Can anyone tell me? Because if there is a definiton for normal then maybe I can understand where I am not. I've got to find a way to understand this or else I'm just going to remain in this holding pattern I've been in.

I want to get off of this detour road and get on the main highway again but I just don't know how. I suppose I'm simply lost.

Thanks for listening to me whine.

~Danielle

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Tue, 01-03-2006 - 8:56pm

THanks it is hard!!! boy I am at 3 months quit and boy do I feel that way alot, but becoming a nurse to heal someone and they see me smoking outside I just wouldn't won't that, then could they trust me?? Trust yourself and you are on your way to getting to where you want just see it I do..

Lynn

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Tue, 01-03-2006 - 9:01pm
Makes sense to me : )

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Wed, 01-04-2006 - 12:42pm

You are far from yammering. These are true concerns that are so true. Even the psychology world realizes that we are limiting your ability to heal by giving labels, and BP is a large one to have to deal with. To be honest, it sounds like you went through a very tramatic situation that will of course change who you are.

As for "normal", you won't believe it but the psych world is actually coming ot terms that there is no normal. (Hey who wants to be normal anyway?) I haven't told anyone, but i am going to school for psychology. My fellow students and i are always laughing about "normal." What i have come to the conclution of when we need to be treated is when the symptms hinder our everyday living, or when they are hindering someone else's. A book way to discribe it. Is when you do a survey of everyone who is going through something, you will find a curve. (all mathimatical and hard for me to even explain) The out of "normal" are those who are the 30% left on one extreme or the other of the situation.

I hope this helps some, and any more questions please ask...it at least makes me feel like i am learning something even through my anxiety issues. :D

Celeste

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Wed, 01-04-2006 - 2:56pm

Thank you Celeste for making me feel a little more sane about this whole thing. I suppose there is no easy answer, there is no perfect answer and I don't think normal exists. BP has been a big dx and there is so much stigma behind it. My life long dream is to be a dr, Yes I'll be starting very late but will this stop me : (
I appreciate everything you said. Nice to know some people out there understand where I am emotionally. In a word "twisted" would about sum it up.

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Danielle

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Registered: 07-18-2004
Wed, 01-04-2006 - 4:22pm

I want to be a Dr. too in psychology...but that will have to be in steps for me. And i was diagnosed BP also, so might be why i understand. There are alot of connotations with the diagnoses, and would love to write a book on it. No one will take me serious though tell i at least get some type of degree. ;) Keep dreaming...we'll be here to help.

Celeste

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