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| Mon, 01-16-2006 - 10:07am |
Hi everyone,
Hopefully someone can talk me down. I just had a MAJOR trigger for my anxiety, and I feel like I have no where to turn. I can't focus, and I feel all tingly. Anyone who reads my posts know my anxiety stems from rejection and fear of people not liking me.
The long and short of it was that my friend said to me "YOUR INSECURITIES ARE DRIVING ME NUTS!! STOP BEING SO INSECURE AND GET OVER IT." All that I was trying to do in the situation was be nice, and allow another plan to be made. I am so hurt and I can't let it go. Most people wouldn't care, but to me it seems catastrophic. Does this girl not like me anymore? Am I that annoying??
I guess it a little detail is necessary. My 5 year old boy had plans with his little girlfriend. I thought the plans were in the morning, and she changed them to the afternoon to make plans with another girl for the morning. (this other mom makes me so insecure and ofcourse I think she doesn't like me.) My fear came true that they were having plans with the kids, so all I said was "Well aren't the girls going to want to play after they get home from gymnastics?" I think I was just trying to protect myself incase my "fear that the moms were getting together without me really happened." These two girls are best buds, and are together all the time. Know that the kids are at an age where the girls only want to be with the girls, it is hard on me because i have a boy. He notices it sometimes, but I think it bothers me more than it bothers me.
I am in a panic right now, and I am so scared to see the friend who yelled at me. This probably sounds all very ridiculous to you all, but to me it feels like the end of the world. Silly, I know.
Thanks for reading. Love, JD

I hope by now you are feeling a bit better.
Sheri Ann
Jolie,
Have you started the meds yet? maybe if you haven't you should... your insecurities are showing and you really don't want that from people who don't understand.
Can you try explaining to her about your anxiety? Maybe that would help...
I'm sure that coming to chat would help also.... it would be nice to see you there.
Hugs,