So embarrassed, anxiety creeping up
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| Wed, 01-18-2006 - 11:29am |
Hey,
Mostly, i have my anxiety (general and social) under control. I take ativan when I go to sleep, which helps to avoid the big anxiety period of right before i fall asleep, something that was a big issue in the past.
Right now tho, the social anxiety is creeping up. I know most people would just brush this off of them, but i feel so embarassed about the anxiety.
Last week, I was supposed to get my period. While it came, it was very light, without any heavy days. I kept waiting for a normal day to show up, but it never did. I kept this to myself for a few days, but then i started having cramps around my ovaries, and that really freaked me out. I am on the pill (ortho tri-cyclen lo), have been for three years, but my period never did this before. immediatly i looked up what the early symptoms of pregnancy were, got a bit more freaked out, and told my LTBF (of 3 years). His reaction was that we should immediatly find out whats wrong, and be able to deal with it.
For some reason, this just really scared me. I called Planned Parenthood (my gynocologists in this area) to have a pregnancy test, because i was not sure if i could take a hpt and be on the pill. My test is next tuesday, and i'm so embarrassed, i dont want to go. It probably is nothing, stress probably affected my period. At the same point I am kinda wondering why my ovaries hurt, but that's based on a surgery i had 3 years ago to remove an ovarian dermoid cyst. I'm just so embarrased that it's gonna be nothing, and i wasted their time and worried about nothing. DBF wants me to go to the appointment regardless, rather than wait for another month to see if i got my period. I just feel so stupid, I don't know what to do.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated, thank you so much!
Lizzie

(((Lizzie))) Don't feel foolish!
Sheri Ann