intrusive thoughts....

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Registered: 03-27-2003
intrusive thoughts....
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Wed, 01-18-2006 - 12:04pm

hi,

i haven't been here in quite a while, i have been hanging
aroung the OCD board here.

anyway i have int. thoughts about harming my son, i'm
so sick of this nonsense and get really angry that
it can still get to me, knowing it is all just FEAR!!

also, i wonder "will i ever go crazy" gee....how
classic am i...

anyway, int thoughts moms did you ever truly get
RID of this forever......would like to hear your
strories of coping, overcoming, etc..

thanks,
kris - Hi, Jan!

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Wed, 01-18-2006 - 12:11pm

one more thing re: the previous posts
about what came first, the yucky stomach
or the panic.

i really beleive i have JUST a yucky
stomcah sometimes that causes panicky feelings.
i have so many panic memories stored in my brain and i think
any physical yuckiness makes a connection that calls up
my panic, all those connections
that they talk about in the brain.

am i making any sense?

kris

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 01-18-2006 - 12:51pm

Triggers?


Hi, Kris! WB! It's great to see you:) I understand totally what you're talking about. I swear on a stack of Bibles that I have *something* in my bowel that sets off my anxiety. From past experience, I KNOW that when gas gets trapped in there, I get a weak & shaky feeling which leads to panic if I don't do my belly breathing & think positively. It happened last night. I know that going to the bathroom will make me feel better. Although this has happened countless times & I know I will not die from it, I actually debated about *holding it.* What was I thinking? After 30 minutes of suffering, I finally came to terms with my imminent demise & allowed myself the luxury of using the toilet. I was fine. I am still here today to torment you people. LOL It's like what comes first? The chicken or the egg? Does my anxiety make the bowel problem or does the bowel make the anxiety. I can never be sure.


I know you won't hurt your son, Kris. Those intrusive thoughts can be so frightening. They do feel real. It isn't that we're psychotic & don't have a grip on reality. We KNOW exactly what is going on in our minds & suffer alot of anxiety. This just feeds more

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-27-2003
Wed, 01-18-2006 - 1:34pm

Jan,

ditto on the gas thing!!...too funny!!

kris

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Wed, 01-18-2006 - 3:13pm

ditto for me, too :)


What Jan said is true, they are thoughts, that is it.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 05-16-2005
Wed, 01-18-2006 - 3:57pm

wow,we with anxiety have so much in common.i remember i suffered for 2 years before someone told me it was just anxiety.anyway,i did indeed overcome the fear of hurting my children.i was afraid to bath them,thinking i would drown them,thats one of several fears i had,having those thoughts scared the daylights out of me.i used lots of self help books,which helped me with ALOT of my anxiety.i learned ppl who really want to hurt there kids or anyone for that matter,did not sit around scaring the heck out of there self thinking about it.took some work but now with all my anxiety,if i have scarying thoughts that wont let up,i know its only anxiety,if it werent i wouldnt be obsessing about it.kwim?i like to always think i have cancer or something that will kill me hiding in me somewhere,but same goes

 

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Wed, 01-18-2006 - 10:48pm

Jeanie, that's how I feel, I don't have any thoughts of hurting my children, but knives for example, freak me out, I have no idea why whatsoever!

Sheri Ann