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| Thu, 01-26-2006 - 7:57am |
Good Morning!
I have been up since 3:50am, and my mind is racing. I am due for my period, and I just upped my paxil to 25mg. I woke up with a bad dream, and I couldn't fall back asleep. So far this morning I have watched the rest of the Bachelor (delicious!), and 1 1/2 episodes of Grey's Anatomy (dr. mcdreamy!!)and took a long shower! Nice.
While I was lying in bed, I kept getting "cold sweats" and my heart was beating unusually fast. I have so much on my mind, and I am wondering if this is a hormonal issue, or a paxil issue. The rumination won' t stop, and I am obsessing terribly about one mom at school. I keep playing in my head how she is blowing me off, and how I have to face this woman every day not knowing what I did to make her so cold to me. We share the same friends, and I am such a nice person to her. Infact, I am a nice person to everyone!! I am too damn nice, that is my problem! I think I devulged way too much info about my "issues" to her, and now she doesn't like me anymore. She is so cold to me. How are you friends with someone one day, sharing intimate info, and then not friends the next. I think I am just to "needy" for her.
I know it must sound crazy to you, but I try to stop it and it just keeps coming back. UGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
Thanks for listening. Jolie

Oh Jolie, this has got to be so frustrating for you.
Jennifer
"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi
Good morning Jolie!
Sheri Ann
Hi Jolie,
None of what you said sounds crazy!!! Maybe it is your meds I would call your doc and let him know your concerns, Unforntully some other people don't understand and are jealous that poeople that aren't perfect can function as well as you seem too, I too wear my heart on my sleeve or used too, and sadly some poeple take that as weakness I have learned, and take you for granted, In my opinion those people who don't talk to you anymore or seem stand offish, aren't not possible disliking you, but wondering how you do so well you haveing to deal with so many things. I wouldn't worry about them, and just know that you have not done anything wrong and just be you and you know what I think? they will come around and hey maybe if you think it would help you could talk to them..about your concerns.
Just remember you are a good person and what other poeple think is there thinking and is not correct about you. I have had a hard time in the passed of saying no, until I was very ill from not saying no and I said ok this is it.. and was forced to slow down. I still have alittle problem with being so nice sometimes, but
I have found out that is just me and I won't change that part,why should I???? don't you either there aren't enough in the world today expect on this board... Come to chat tonight and we will all talk it is fun I have missed a few since I go to college at night but I will be there tonight. Sorry for being so long winded. Hand in there..
Lynn
You are a doll. Thank you for always having the best advice and the nicest things to say. I really appreciate it.
Love, JD