And I was doing so good.....
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| Mon, 01-30-2006 - 6:55am |
Welcome to another morning of Amy Didn't Sleep Last Night.
No PA, exactly, but could not fall asleep for anything! First my head was running, which was my own fault for doing homework and discovering a new site right before bed. Then my blood sugar was low and I got scary-low readings, though I think my strips must be bad because I didn't feel sick enough to get those numbers and they were all over the place on successive readings.
And then...I just couldn't sleep. No matter where I put my head or my arms, all I could feel and hear was my slightly elevated heartbeat--not racing, just a little faster than normal, probably due to frustration of not being able to sleep. Every time I was almost asleep I jolted awake again with mild racing for a few seconds, and then back to a general discontent. And there was always something...had to go to the bathroom, horrendously thirsty, hungry, cold, hot, garbage truck. Every now and then I would get what I've been calling a "panic surge"--where I get that panicky tingly feeling in my head, but it does not progress into anything worse.
This is so frustrating. NOw I have to skip my afternoon classes to take a nap because I have a recruitment reception with American Express tonight, with the people I am interviewing with tomorrow. Around 4am I thought I should go in to the health center before class...but for what? What can they possibly tell me that I don't know? I know my heart's fine...the racing and pounding I was having a month ago have not recurred since I came back to Ithaca. And I know that my sugar readings are probably a bad batch of strips, and that to find out I need to get some control solution and see if the readings are okay....but I want to do SOMETHING!!! I HATE THIS!!!!!

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I am so sorry you are feeling this way, but you are still doing good,not like you want to be doing, but you just have had some hills and those hills will flaten ,I know you are asking when?? Well usually for me not until I finish taking a test. or finally get some rest. But don't be so hard on yourself and just keep doing your best, that is all you can do. besides venting here. Hey!! and letting us know your feeling and what you experince helps alot of us to realize we aren't alone in our challages we face. Oh I am sorry I am lynn and it is so nice to meet you, sorry!! I don't if I introduced myself or not,hope to TTYS. HAGD
Kynn
Oh I can feel your frustration.
Jennifer
"Oh, that you would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evi
I feel your no-sleep pain! Studying will do that to you, or anxiety, or kids, or life. I spent last night trying to study and console a vomiting child. Then with no sleep I took an exam this morning at 8:00am.
I "try" to relax before bedtime. I stop all activity at least 30 minutes before laying down to calm my mind. I grab a cup of hot chocolate and watch a little tv or take a bath. Then I do my bathroom business and crawl in bed, say my prayers and try to sleep. Some days works better than others.
Hope you are feeling better soon and good luck on your interview.
Lisa
I am sorry to hear this, Amy. Sleep is so important in winning the battle against anxiety. Here is a ton of iVillage content on insomnia. There's some diet info & even herbal remedies. HTH
Thanks everyone for the encouraging messages. I'm inhaling a sandwich right now and then crashing for a couple hours before this reception thing tonight. Skipped two classes, though. (I don't do it often, so I think I can play sick this time.)
I really do need to shut off a bit before going to bed, though. That definitely doesn't help....
(((Amy))) How are you doing??
Sheri Ann
I'm doing ok. I've been sleeping relatively well the rest of this week (though not nearly long enough). A few surges here and there, but nothing big. Felt a little 'at risk' this evening at a dinner with my classmates where the only sugar free drink was Diet Coke, but it didn't develop into anything.
Today was a very good day...I was offered an internship by the one company that I interviewed with! So that takes a good chunk of pressure off. I still have five classes and three club websites, but who's counting?
Sorry I've missed the chats. Crazy busy, and I keep forgetting that they are scheduled.
How was your trip to CT?
{{hugs}}
Amy
One thing I wanted to add about the test strips is make sure you're putting a good drop of blood on there.
Sheri Ann
CT was postponed as I've had the flu.
Sheri Ann
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