New--social anxiety (I think)

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Registered: 09-15-2004
New--social anxiety (I think)
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Tue, 02-21-2006 - 12:55pm
I can't ever decide exactly what my anxiety problem is. I think I am leaning more towards social though. Crowds scare me to death. I can't eat in our break room at work-I have to eat in the bathroom or not at all because we are not allowed to eat at our desks. Lately it's gotten worse. I am afraid to approach people at their desks-if I have to put something on their desk I will wait until they are away. If they appear to be coming over to my desk I get upset. I am even feeling anxious if someone sits in the stall next to me in the bathroom. People just scare me to pieces! I was diagnosed bi-polar last year and I have always had ADHD. I never got true treatment for anything until last year so it all ran rampant my whole life. My first hospitalization was when I was 13. Can't count how many I've had since then. I was in special classes from 2nd to 11th grade-mainly because I could not get along with my peers. I have always had a bit of a "social" anxiety problem but lately it's gotten so much more irritating. Everyone at work thinks "she's got a serious problem" or so I've heard the chatter going on in the bathroom. When I got PG back in Nov. I actually had one of the women ask me if it's a good idea for me to have children! I was very hurt and angry. Then I lost the baby in January. Perhaps it WAS for the best. They think all the meds (like xanax)I have to take for the BP was the probable reason for the miscarriage. I would like to have a child, but if I go off the meds I REALLY loose it. A lot of things make me anxious and upset now, so I am wondering if it's just social or general? Or perhaps it's just my personality.
Jodie

Jodie

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 02-21-2006 - 3:05pm

Hello, Jodie! It's nice to have you here. You are NOT alone. Many of our folks have experiences much like you. Social phobia/fear/anxiety is common among the anxiety disorders. In fact, I bumped up a post listing many links that you can use. I hope you'll read through them & learn some new ways to cope. Also, our *coping tips & tricks* folder below will give you some pointers.


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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 02-23-2006 - 10:40am

Hi Jodie & welcome!

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 09-15-2004
Thu, 02-23-2006 - 1:03pm

Nice to meet you!
Hmm...let me see. There's 10mg's of Amiben, 200 mg's of Serequel, 300 mg's of Lamictal and 2 mg's of Xanax. Also 2000 mg's of Metformin for the PCOS and 2 mg's a week of Dostinex for the high prolactin. Sometimes I feel like a medicine cabinet. I am 34 years old BTW. But the PG was soooo stressful, I don't know if I EVER want to repeat it. It was generally thought that the meds were the main contributor to my miscarriage. If I go off the meds, I often start thinking (or even attempting) the big S word. I can't COUNT the amount of times I've been IP. They wanted me to be residential when I was a teen but my parents wouldn't allow it. Later when I was grown up they still want me to be residential but by now I have too much responsibility so it's just not an option. I hate being IP anyway. All I do is hide in my room, take my meds and then tell the doc I'm ready to go home. Bleh! To top it off my ins. company will no longer pay for my Ambien so I have to fork over the $120.00 a month for it. I tried counseling but so far just haven't been able to make a satisfactory connection with one. Perhaps I should try again sometime soon.
Thanks for your response!
Jodie

Jodie

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 02-23-2006 - 2:31pm

Yeah, that's alot of meds.

Sheri Ann