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| Fri, 02-24-2006 - 11:13am |
So, I was doing so good with my anxiety. Listening to the Lucinda Bassett tapes and doing the homework, and seeing the cognitive behavioral therapist - was feeling SO much better. Not needing to take medication or anything...
So....I kind of got caught on this one lesson in the Lucinda Bassett tapes on negative thinking and just could not get myself to do the homework, put it off - and then cancelled a few appointments with the therapist. The last week has been hell as I fell right back in to the pattern of morning anxiety, feeling horrible, even vomited yesterday morning I was so caught up. We have had a little bit of financial difficulties lately as well - so that was setting me off too. The worries.
I just feel like I kind of sabotaged myself. I was feeling better so I let up on the hard work I was doing and sunk right back in to the old bad pattern. It sucks. Why would I do that??? I did go see the therapist today and listened to one of the tapes and am trying to get back on track.
I hate this S$%T!!!!! I wish the fairy princess would just hit me with her wand and cure me :)!!!!!

Everyobody goes off track sometimes...there is an entire diet book industry to prove it! Think those people would make any money if we all picked a diet and actually stayed with it?
Don't beat yourself up over it. So you got off track for a little while. Brush yourself off and get back on...you can't change the past, but you can control what you do in the future.
I feel the same way about my diet right now. I know what I'm supposed to eat to keep my blood sugar and moods steady, and yet I have been living on sandwiches and cookies. Last night I had a calzone full of cheese and greasy meat....*sigh*
It's not some personal failing that's unique to you. We all do it.
{{hugs}}
Amy
Even though you had a minor setback, it sounds like you are handling it quite well right now. The tape you played whilewith your therapist, was it the one that set you off-track? If not, I would play that one while your therapist is around and discuss what may have triggered your setback. Although since you are back on track somewhat, it was not really that much of a setback. We all have that at times. Even 'sane' people fall back but since they don't have a label, nothing is ever said.
Good for you girl! You sound like you really have it together but just don't realize it.
Barb
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Sheri Ann
What I have found to be true in my own life, is that when I am doing really good, I stop what I have been doing and take my wellness for granted.
Sheri Ann
Hi,
I think the Lucinda Bassette tapes and the books are wonderful. In regards to the anxiety you are feeling, it is going to be natural for you to go up and down with your emotions. This is something that we carry within us and sometimes we just get alittle hard of ourselves. Quite honestly, when things start to get really good or I am going through alot of changes in mylife I tend to get alittle more anxious. Just trust within yourself that you have the strenght and the courage to face things and you are under alot of pressure with the financial difficulties that you are going through and anyone would be. You are starting to change and grow. That is what you started when you embarked on the journey of listening to the tapes and reading the books. When you started getting anxious it was a warning sign to you that something was not working or you were not being true to yourself. Whether you were in an unhappy relationship or whatever you felt was blocking you. The anxiety is a way to make you face things and maybe change things that you are afraid of or unsure of. I wish you a happy day and I hope that you understand that with every step you make you are making yourself stronger and try not to feel too bad about missing the therapy. Maybe you just needed a break!! Not a set back just a break! You are still working on this. Just think you reached out to people and you expressed your feelings..Things will be ok!
Paula
Thanks everyone - your words are SO helpful!!!
-Jenn