Panic and disconnected creeping in

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Panic and disconnected creeping in
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Mon, 03-06-2006 - 1:25pm

I went to lay Audrey in bed and felt dizzy.All those feelings came back from when I had to go to the hospital with severe vertigo and ANY movement to my head made me vomit.I started to feel panic,all my muscles felt strange and when I said something to my oldest daughter,it felt as if it didnt even come from me,like I

 

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Registered: 05-15-2004
Tue, 03-07-2006 - 11:40am

Jeanie

I know exactly how you feel! My name is Yolanda Im 30 years old, Im a stay at home mom of two girls, a 6 year old and a 4 year old.
I was first diagnosed with PPD after my first child and from there I started with my Anxiety and Panic Attacks as well as the "Depersonlization" of course at the time I had no idea what those weird feelings were so all the "What ifs" come along and then I would work myself up to a full panic attack. It was a huge roller coaster ride! So I did my research did alot of reading and finally decided to get some help. I recieved therapy and medication. I eventually got better. Two years later after my second preganacy It came back PPD and Panick attacks. But what was more intense was the "Depersonolization" that disconnected feeling. Wow! It was scary . But I received tharapy and was on medication again. I also joined a support group it helped allot.
I also started excercing and changed my eating habits. And SLEEP was a big factor in my disconnected feeling. I make sure I sleep well because I know that if I dont I start geeling tired,DP,moody anxious ect... And now here Im a feel great no meds and I use the tools that I learned in therapy. I do cardio everyday, at least I try everyday! I also learned to listen to my body and the signs it starts to give you when you need to slow down in life. Ask yourself are you doing to much in the day? What are you eating? What is bothering you? Is there a descicion to be made that causing you stress? Are you taking care of yourself? In order to be a good wife and mother you need to take care of YOU! YOU are just as important.

If you need to talk please email me. yolicamrena@mac.com

I hope you have a good day!
Yolanda from California

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Tue, 03-07-2006 - 11:58am

Welcome to the board Yolanda!


Thank you for your post. My worst symptom are those nasty "unreal" feelings. I HATE that other people have to go through it but it is comforting to know that you have gotten through it. My biggest fear has

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Registered: 05-16-2005
Tue, 03-07-2006 - 1:25pm

Gosh I am sorry I havent been back sooner to respond.You were absolutely right when you said ,I could be getting sick.Off and on yesterday I would just feel exhausted and weak,kinda like a floaty feeling,I decided to check my temp,it was only 100.6,but my glands in my neck hurt,and my eyes feel like they should be hanging to my shoulders.I called my doc at 9 am,I have a sinus infection.Which is why I feel floaty and dizzy.He gave me,clindamycin.Any little body symptom really causes me to panic,I notice everything.I think I was already weak from everything else,then I started to get sick which causes normal anxiety and I let those body sensations scare the crap out of me.Then those unreal feelings came on,which I am scared will stay forever.I had anxiety hit me in the past that stuck around for months.Its awful to be that way.


 

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Tue, 03-07-2006 - 2:01pm

Hello Yoli,


 

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Tue, 03-07-2006 - 2:28pm

Heather,


 

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Registered: 12-18-2005
Tue, 03-07-2006 - 3:17pm

Jeanie,
I am sorry you don't feel well. I understand where you are coming from completely! Not only am I (almost) 6 months prego so I have all those silly prego hormones rushing through me it seems like my dd and I have gotten every bug out there. I just got over the stomach flu, 2 weeks before that I had strep throat, inner ear infection and bronchitis.

I know how awful those disconnected, disjointed, awful feelings can be. To offer you a look on the bright side, if there is one, when that happens as scary as it is just remind yourself that your braain is doing EXACTLY what it is supposed to be doing. When our anxiety levels go up, or we have PA's we have a whole rush of different neurotransmitters and hormones rushinig through our brain plus adrenalin and cortisol rushing through our bodies, so that is the brain's way of coping with a "sensory Overload" if you will. I'm not trying to sound "know-it-ally" or too technical, but when I first started having anxiety attacks this was my biggest symptom, once I started to understand why my brain was doing that and it was in fact, supposed to be doing that and it was helping me I no longer had the "after-effects" and the "what-if" thinking afterwards, kwim? One thing, in particular, I have found helpful is to do something physical. Whether it is taking a short walk or cleaning the house. Then when or as I do it I sing. There are 2 reasons this can help. The first reason is doing physical activity will help use that extra adrenalin running through your body and it is a distraction, something else for your mind to focus on rather than physical feelings and symptoms but the other reason is (and you may feel silly singing out loud but I will even do it in Wal-Mart lol, not very loud but it still helps--I just make sure my 6 yr old dd is with me so I can "blame" the singing on her he he he) singing stimulates the other side of your brain, so that it competes for the activity levels against the fear side. I'm not sure I explained that right, or enough to make sense. Bottom line is you are not going crazy and you will find ways that work for you that will enable you to cope with these feelings. Feel free to e-mail or talk to me anytime andreadantzer@yahoo.com (also my yahoo id). I wish you the best of luck and lotsa prayers and positive and healthy "get over being sick" vibes your way.

Andrea
P.s. just had to tell ya, I'm a fellow Michigander. My jaw about dropped when I saw you mention the Palace of Auburn Hills, I was excited to see someone from my own state here :). I live way up north (but not U.P.).

Andrea

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 03-07-2006 - 3:30pm

Yolanda, Thank you so much for sharing your story.

Sheri Ann

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