Agoraphobia is ruining my life
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| Tue, 03-07-2006 - 3:01pm |
I'm sitting here crying as I type because I have so many things I need to do, so many places I need to go, and I am paralyzed by fear. I can't even get to my psychiatrist's office because of it. I don't have any medication to take that will make it even a little easier. I have Xanax, but it doesn't help worth squat.
My pets need to go to the vet, I think I have a couple of cavities and need to get to a dentist, and the list goes on. I can't even make the necessary phone calls because that freaks me out, too.
I'm nothing more than a pathetic bundle of nerves and I just really, really hate myself right now. I keep thinking that I could get things accomplished if I really wanted to, if I just pushed myself harder. It's not helping. Nothing is helping. I feel my life spinning out of control and it frightens me.
Please help.

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There's alot of questions in there, I hope I don't leave any out, lol.
Sheri Ann
Hello,
Okay, about the water now I know I'm not the only one. I feel better about that one.
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There's one other kid our street, and he goes to a sitter before school, so Ian will be the only one at the bus stop.
Sheri Ann
Nice to see you, Gin;) You can do anything you want! One just needs the motivation to get started. I never had home visits by the dr. or dentist, but I took advantage of lots of ways to deal with things without leaving home. I sent my friends, family & kids on errands. I plainly neglected my health & dental work, by NOT going out. It was a very lonely existence. With meds(antidepressants & an occasional med like xanax) & therapy, I began to deal better with the panic. I wasn't so afraid. I literally make myself leave the house everyday for a shopping trip or stop @ a friend's or the post office. I need to do this everyday because I still have some leftover driving fear. Especially bridges.
I admire your goal setting & overcoming the drinking. Please give yourself credit for that. I think we all have to do whatever it takes to help us regain our lives. Long term use of xanax is controversial but there are plenty of ppl who use it long term. Talking with a professional about your concerns may be a good idea.
Have you considered meditation or yoga? What about hypnosis, accupuncture or other alternatives? I wish you well. Most of us are works in progress on this board. I learn new ways to cope with panic everyday. Post anytime. We care & want to see you succeed. (((hugs))) jan
Hi,
Thanks for the welcome. I did ignore my health for years. But my psych finally insisted that I get blood work so I was able to find home visiting psysicans in my area. That's all they do. For anyone no matter the reason. The dentist was just a fluke because he was my dentist before my situation got bad and when I tried to arraign going to his office when he was not busy, he had sold his practice and became also a strictly mobile dentist. Neither of these are doing me any special favors.
And I am just starting the book, so I will be learning about the breathing, medidation and such.
For Sheriann,
Thank-you Gin for your words of encouragement.
Sheri Ann
Hi
I know his sounds silly but have you tried averation attempts. Like when you take Ian across the street -practice his abc's or colors, stuff like that. I 'm 46 years old and when my kids went to school you barely had to know your name. Now I know from from friends that it is expected at 5 years to know your abc's, all your colors, Way too
That's great that you went for a walk!
Sheri Ann
That's an excellent way to start - With small walks or trips... Gradually building up to longer distances when you feel comfortable. I used to be agoraphobic, and that's how I started my recovery - By taking small walks with my dogs. The important thing is to never do anything that scares yourself silly, otherwise you will put yourself off doing it again. Just take one small baby-step at a time. Another important thing is to have faith that you will get better - I am no longer agoraphobic. I remember a time when I went to a crowded, brand new shopping mall and left in tears because I had a panic attack. Now, that mall is my favourite place to shop, and I go there quite regularly.
Good Luck!
~Cherise
Cherise, Thank-you soooo much for posting this.
Sheri Ann
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