Don't understand

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Don't understand
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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 12:03pm

So many things are happening in my life right now and most of them are positive, in fact all of them are. I just don't understand why I'm still suffering such anxiety, you would think I'ld just be estatic. Seems as if I have one great day and then the next I'm so down and anxious. It's starting to drive me crazy. I guess I just want to vent and I so much wish I could just be "normal".

Keitha

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 12:38pm

Keitha - I can completely relate. It took me a while to agree to start taking medication because I kept thinking that it would pass. I'm happy in life - I have a great husband and two wonderfully beautiful children. Life is good for me - why does this anxiety keep coming back.

I guess it's one of those things that once you've had it - you are a little more prone to it than the "average" person. I think that we are most sensative to anxiety than most people and we react to it in a manner that actually heightens it.

I don't have much advice other than to say I understand!

As far as the being "normal" - I'm not sure what that is anymore.

Val

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 1:50pm
I have done alot of *upping & downing* too, Keitha. Sometimes I think I am doomed to trade depression in for anxiety, then back again. Life is a struggle for us. Try to focus on the good things. Ditch the stinkin' thinkin.' Be kind to yourself. You're a wonderful person with many good qualities. You are so much more than this dang anxiety! I wish I could take this all away. (((hugs))) jan


 

 


 



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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 2:17pm

Keitha,

It is good to hear that positive things are happening in your life. Try to live in the moment and enjoy ;-)

I understand that it is hard to release the anxiety and take comfort in the positive, I am going to gradutate soon and all I can do is worry about "reality shock" when I am released into the real world. I should be concentrating on the positive, a college degree!!

Take care,

Lisa

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 2:32pm

Hi Keitha,

I know it seems like you have everything to be happy about so why am I not? Sometimes

when happiness is at our feet we don't recognize happiness so we stay with what we are

familiar with ,at least it seems that way sometimes, but hey things will get on track and

we have to tell our selves we deserve to be happy over and over unitl we know it. So

Hang in there we are here and you are a good person so smile and smile.

(((((BIG BIG HUGS))))

Lynn

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 4:22pm

Val I'm not sure what normal is anymore either but I want to be it LOL. It helps knowing there are those special people out there that understand. I like you am very happy in my life I have a wonderful caring partner and all these animals that help to make my life complete and give it purpose. The tides have changed and finally things are going for us instead of against us. Maybe I'm afraid to be to happy just in case the tides again change. I need to live in the moment and think of today and let tomorrow bring what it will. Unfortunatly easier said then done.

Keitha

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 4:33pm

Jan you always know the right things to say to bring me back to where I need to be. I hate the anxiety but I find it even more difficult to deal with the depression. I guess what bothers me most is I see no reason for it. And then I find myself obsessing about it, trying to analyze it, trying to make sense of it. Maybe I need to admit that there is no sense to be made of it it's just how I am and accept that.

Keitha

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 4:43pm

Lisa It's this roller coaster ride that seems to be driving me crazy. My ups are so very up I feel like nothing can touch me and then I crash for no apparant reason. Fear? Could be. I have alot of problems with trust and so often feel hopeless. How do I get over this? You'ld think my therapist would be of help wouldn't you, but to be truthful I get more out of talking with my best friend then I do her. I'ld change therapists but being on government programs don't give you alot of choices.

Keitha

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 4:52pm

Lynn I think you may be right sometimes it is easier to stay in the familiar, and for me the familiar is anxiety, uncertainty, and depression. I have the world at my feet and I want so much to be happy with it. I've waited my whole life to be happy and here it is and I guess you could say I'm afraid, afraid once I accept it it will again be taken away from me.

Keitha

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 7:48pm

(((keitha)))

Sheri Ann

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Sat, 03-18-2006 - 7:52am

Keitha,

I think we all have a hard time with going to the unfamilar and trust is an issue with

allot of us, so don't feel alone. I know with me I've been know too cause things to go

wrong just because I knew how to deal with things like that easier. I know it sounds

strange. But it took someone pointing it out to me and now no more trying to sabatage

things that made me happy. It will take time to trust again, but you know the old saying

anything worth having is worth waiting for or something like that.. right Keitha you are

a good person so you will get where

you want to be I promise. Until then share the happiness you have now with others give

some birds some bird seed or a local amianal shelter a bag of dog food, anything little

it will make them happy and in turn it will make you happy. Sorry I didn't

mean to make a short story of it all. Take Care and just love yourself and things will be

ok.

(((((BIG BIG HUGS)))))

lynn

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