My grandpa started the chemo
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| Wed, 03-29-2006 - 2:10pm |
I am so grouchy today and hateful.My nerves are awful right now.Just hereing my phone ring,sends rage over me.I have been yelling at my little one so much,she wants me to sit and blow up balloons,color,watch a movie.I just feel like screaming when she ask me something.I feel like my insides are vibrating.I dont even want to talk to my mom,she just makes me so mad sometimes.Always worried about herslf and being self centered.Wondering who will bring her groceries if something happenes to grandpa.She makes me sick sometimes.Talking about when dad died,and remember how he said off the wall things whn cancer was in his brain.She never sees the real facts,and the fact is grandpa has cancer and will die in 4 months if chemo dont work,and yet she asks who will get


(((Jeanie))) I can't even imagine what today was like for you!
Sheri Ann
Well I am in a better mood now.Gosh I was in such rare form,everywhere i
(((Jeanie))) What to say about your mom? I am so sorry. Like Sheri Ann, I have to think that your mom won't change @ this late date. Does she have any clue how she sounds to others? We are all a product of life's experiences. Some folks always put themselves & their needs above that of others. Your mom more than likely has accumulated a lifetime of fears & insecurities. I'm glad you were able to bring your frustrations here to vent. I hope that in spite of what she has said & done, you can let it go. Just focus on you & now, grampa. He really needs you. That was great that you stuck it out in the oncology room.
Glad to hear that your grampa is doing ok. I hope he gets some rest before chemo tomorrow. My P&PT's for all of you. (((hugs))) jan
Send her on over :)
Sheri Ann
Jeanie, are you going with him tomorrow?
Sheri Ann
Well no I am almost ashamed to say,I wont be going tomorrow.I think I want to stay hide in the house.Maybe clean a closet or something.I dont know,maybe i will go get some food,my fridge is empty.I get a little to comfortable when I dont get out of the house.When i do go out,I am really nervous,and its much easier to stay in.
I am truly sorry to hear about your troubles and I wish your grandfather the best. It is awful of what you have to endure due to circumstance. My wife's aunt was recently diagnosed with cancer so I can relate somewhat to what you are going through. The important thing is that you are there for him.
Take care,
Rob
'Well no I am almost ashamed to say,I wont be going tomorrow.'
Jeanie, no need to be ashamed at all.
Judy