I don't like wednesdays.

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I don't like wednesdays.
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Wed, 04-05-2006 - 3:13pm

Wednesdays are a high stress day for me because that's the day I have to go volunteer at church with the youth group which has been very challenging for me because of my social issues. I didn't realize how much of

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Wed, 04-05-2006 - 3:31pm

I know what you mean...I went on a walk the other day and was so lost in gloomy thoughts and then trying to make myself snap out of it that I totally missed out on the beautiful scenery that I normally enjoy so much...then I was mad at myself for being this way and not being able to enjoy where I am. I never used to be this way...sometimes it's a bit scary!

I'm hoping as the Effexor increase kicks in for me that the obsessive thinking will decrease again and I'll be able to redirect more easily. That's what happened when I first went on it but the gloomy/obsessive/anxious thoughts came creeping back in.

~Meghan

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Wed, 04-05-2006 - 3:51pm
I just feel like I'm not here. Like I'm so intruded into myself that I'm not really involved or really experiencing the things around me. Like I'm numb. It's wierd.


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Wed, 04-05-2006 - 5:09pm

Heather, it sounds like you just want to vent, but I would like to give you my take on the situation.

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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 12:04am

What you describe, Heather sounds alot like what I felt when very depressed. It is almost word for word how others describe their feelings in alot of materials I have read. Anxiety/depression do go hand in hand.


I have to agree with Sheri Ann, that if your committment to the youth group is causing you so much distress, step back for a bit. Don't consider it having failed in any way. Don't beat yourself up over it. Your focus has changed. You need to feel better about yourself & that will take your time & attention. Did you ever fly & see the demonstration for use of the oxygen masks? If you have a small child, the attendants will tell you to put your OWN mask on first. Then, your child's. If you fumbled around to put it on the child first, you run the risk of passing out & putting 2 lives in peril. Put yourself to the front of the line, gf. Women have a very hard time doing this because they are nurturers. I wish you the best. (((hugs))) jan




 

 


 



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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 2:52am

Hello Heather,


 

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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 8:57am

Jeanie,

I totally understand. i haven't been thinking about depression at all. Is that what this is? I'm looking forward to trying to bring it up at therapy tonight. I had a great night the other night with DH where I just felt... happy. I was happy to just feel like myself and be happy and cut loose, and I'm not sure what was different, but I really liked it. And feeling the difference between that and how I normally feel is what really made me notice this numbness.

It's good to know I'm not the only one and that someone understands. :)


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