Passed a huge test...

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Registered: 04-21-2004
Passed a huge test...
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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 10:58am
One of the situations that causes me the highest anxiety is being in a crowded room in a classroom like setting and feeling as if it would be embarrassing to leave if I needed to. This generally makes me feel very nauseous and I start to panic that I will throw up everywhere and really be embarrassed. Of course this has never happened but I panic just the same. Well, last night was our first time to attend Wednesday service at our new church. It wasn't what I expected. It was in one of the teaching rooms. Rows of chairs and the pastor gave an hour long "sermon". No singing or anything. More like bible study. First, let me just say that the message hit home with me. "Peace through the storm" Could I have asked for a better sermon? I think not. So, this was my first time in a high anxiety situation with NO xanax. It's been 7 years since I've done that and I couldn't even do it back then. (That's why I dropped out of college) I'm happy to say that I was fine last night! I started to panic slightly a couple of times and got a little nauseous. To further illustrate how much of a test it was for me you should know that I was sitting at the end of a row AWAY from the door towards the front of the room. Had I gotten up I would have walked past almost the whole room to get out. Everytime I started to panic I just refocused in on what the pastor was saying and I was ok. I cannot tell you girls how happy I am. I feel amazing. I feel like I can really conquer this! Another high anxiety situation is being in the car whether I'm driving or not. I know I told yall that we were going to a baseball game on Tue night. It went fine. Tomorrow I'm driving to my hometown abut 2 hours away for my brother's wedding rehearsal. Then Saturday is the wedding where I will be standing in front of all those people. Everyone send me prayer and positive thoughts to get through the high anxiety of the next couple of days!
I hope everyone else is doing well!
Robin
Mommy to Lukas Lee
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 04-06-2006 - 11:40am
I am proud of you, Robin. I know how important it is in our recovery to overcome these obstacles. It's important to you & gives so many
 

 


 



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Registered: 03-15-2006
Thu, 04-06-2006 - 3:57pm

Great job! I know you'll do great at the wedding :)

~Meghan

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 04-06-2006 - 9:58pm

It sounds like you are definitely on the right track!

Sheri Ann