Anxiety all nite lastnight

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Registered: 05-16-2005
Anxiety all nite lastnight
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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 1:29pm

Gosh,I am so tired of this.I am very angry today.I finally fell asleep at 6 am.My mind just wouldnt shut off.I layed and worried about dumb stuff.I think everyone knows I am scared of the klonopin,so I cut it in 4 pieces,and just take a quarter.That was actually working for awhile(or i convinced myself it was).By 5 am I took about 3 quarters,and 2 tylenol for my headache,I was out like a light.This is so discouraging for me.I have been doing so well,I only have panic and anxiety at night,but hadnt for awhile.I am at my wits end,I want this crap to just go away.I panic because I cant

 

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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 1:43pm

(((Jeanie))) I had a very similar night so I can understand your frustration.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-28-2003
Thu, 04-06-2006 - 2:55pm
Sorry to hear about your bad night. I'm new to the board so don't know a lot about anyone on the board. In your post you said you were scared of the klonopin. Are you afraid of just this drug or drugs in general? Alot of people with panic/anxiety disorder have fears like that. I was so afraid of drugs in the beginning of my disorder that I could barely swallow and aspirin. I was diagnosed nearly 32 yrs ago and have over come it to a certain degree but am still a little nervous when I have to try something new. Taking it in small amounts and building up is a good idea. I haven't taken anything for my anxiety problem for many years, I have mainly controlled it with therapy and desinsitization. There was a time that I wouldn't stay alone,go out alone or travel outside the city limits of my town. Little by little I have conqoured all of these things. I do still get the night time anxiety at times. I have found if I have too much caffiene or get over stimulated before bed it will kick off one of these episodes. Also too much stress in my life will cause it. I too have problems dealing with anyone or anything vulnerable getting picked on. hearing about an abused child will set me off for days. It makes me sick. Violence of any sort upsets me. I have to watch something like HGTV or a christion channel before going to bed I can't take the violence on most of the shows. I don't think your mind is going haywire, with our disorder were overly sensitive. I used to think like you do that I just wanted to think like my dh or other people. Now I have accepted who I am and celebrate the progress I have made. Its Ok not to like violence. Grace

GRACIE

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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 3:30pm

I am off to the pet store to buy NEMO,his own tank.Dont want to worry all night again.Its a giant gold fish,I just hope I can find one of those little kid fish tanks.I dont really want to do a whole tank set up for Nemo,or do I?Maybe I should buy me the kid tank for my mean fish,after all it was Nemos home.I have to hurry and run before Dave gets home,he will definetly think I have lost my mind for this one;)


 

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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 3:59pm

Jeanie, I think you are so thoughtful!

Sheri Ann

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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 4:16pm
The fear of meds is very common, Grace. I am so glad you were able to overcome it. I still am anxious the first few days I take a new med. Right now it's an antibiotic. With alot of positive self talk, I muddle through:) Thx for the share. (((hugs))) jan




 

 


 



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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 04-06-2006 - 4:22pm
(((Jeanie))) I hope you're feeling better today. The separate fish tank ought to help relieve that worry. Maybe you can take the time to write down some positive thoughts that you can read to yourself if these anxieties pop into your head again. It is very frustrating to want to sleep, but just can't stop the racing thoughts. Hope you sleep like a baby tonight:) Sending lots of positive vibes your way. jan