Having a Panic attack now!
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| Sat, 04-08-2006 - 8:09pm |
oh my, this is what i am choising to do during my panic attack is talk aboutit. I am having people over for a dinner party and i am just sitting her waiting for them FREAKING OUT! For NO REASON! They are good friends of mine, I am just nervous...I don't know why, and I try and tell myself, it will pass, I will be okay, I am NOT going crazy or losing my mind....but then I think, "what if I have to leave the party and can't come back down because i freaking out, how will i explain this?" I am afriad of being embarassed...I do want these people to like me and i think this is why i am feeling anxious, i don't know! I've been doing so good lately, I don't know why I've been having more and more panic attacks, i went 5 years without one, now I have had like 5 + in the last 3 months...and nothing is different in my life, no NEW stressors...
ahhhhh.......................................
I feel like jumping out of my skin, I feel like running, but where? I can't run away from myself, as much as I'd like too right now...
I hate being this way! I feel like I am crazy, really seriously crazy....I'd rather be dead than crazy!
It hurts, really hurts
thanks for listening to my rant
heather

Heather my heart goes out to you. I know those feelings you are talking about only too well. I'm kind of having a rough evening myself, though for totally differant reasons then yours. Out of the blue these feelings of sadness and lonliness have hit me hard. My partner is at work and I so want to call her and tell her to come home I need her. But instead I'll sit here and try to get through it on my own.
Keitha
(((Heather))) I hope that once your friends arrive, you will relax and see that everything is going to be okay. I
Sheri Ann
(((Keitha))) I commend you for sitting through this difficult time and not calling for her to come home.
Sheri Ann
I think Sheri Ann has the right idea. Once your friends arrive
(((Keitha))) I have often been in your shoes. It's tough not to have someone to reach out too. I may have told you that one night, I was so panicked & had nowhere to turn that I called the Domestic Violence hotline. They were so kind to me. Is there someplace you can call or a place online? If anyone knows of a phone number or website, please post it for all of us.
Thanks, Keitha for dropping in. It's so nice that you support others even when you're having tough times. GBU! (((hugs))) jan