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| Fri, 05-05-2006 - 12:41pm |
Grr... I am so frustrated right now. I can't seem to pull myself together!!! My tummy is all fluttery, I'm spaced out, can't focus...... hands are shaking. I'm trying to deep breath but everytime I think I get myself together.... nope!!!! I feel very angry right now that this is disrupting my life!! I'm the one that's supposed to be in control, not my negative thoughts! I'm falling behind here at work. I talked to my honey but once I hang up the phone and I can't hear his voice... ARGH

Try to focus on something positive.
Sheri Ann
Ok, so I managed to calm myself down. I took a 1/4 of the sedatives they gave me, little loopy but not as bad as when I take half.
Today is my last day of the week, thankfully!!! I'm planning a big bike ride for this Saturday with my puppy. She's getting a little chubby cause it got really cold here this winter and she doesn't like to go outside when her toes get cold! (Some guard dog!! LOL!) Thinking of the puppy is seeming to make me smile a little more. (FYI: the puppy is a 3yr old border collie/german shepard cross, not much of a "puppy"!)
I'm also keeping one of those little pocket notebooks with me for when I need to just vent a little bit. Sometime jsut writing what comes to mind helps me focus cause if it's negative I can crumple it up and "remove" those thoughts but I think I might keep them. I start therapy soon (June 15 - the dr is on holiday's) so i may just keep them so I can discuss anything reoccuring.
I think the projct I'm workin on may bee too much for me!!I'm doing a poject in marketing right now and I have never done anything like this so i seem to be getting more overwhelmed than normal. Spoke to the boss today and told him I needed an extention and he agreed so that does take some of the pressure off...
Wow, that was really bad this morning. On a cale of 1 - 10 that was a 20.
thank you so much Sheri Ann. I prob would have bolted if I didn't have someone.... thanks!
You are very welcome!
Sheri Ann