I can't cry

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Registered: 05-29-2003
I can't cry
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Mon, 05-08-2006 - 7:23pm

Hi there,

It's been a while since I've written, and I am doing "ok." The paxil seems to be helping, however, I can not cry. I want to so badly, but it's like my body won't allow it. Does anyone experience this side effect? It is really annoying.

I am so anxious right now, because I just had a social encounter at my son's t-ball game. It was just a practice game, however, I was totally paranoid the entire time that the moms didn't want to be around me, or that they were talking about me. I know, it's crazy. I am so frustrated with myself, because I thought I was making such progress. Now, it is back to the same old worries. (does this one like me? why didn't they think to ask me for plans, bla bla bla!) The tapes are starting again in my head, and this baseball game was a terrible trigger for me.

I forgot to take a xanax before I left, and I told myself on the way there that "I am a good friend, a good person, and I am almost 36 years old, and to stop it already!!" I am a mother of two, and I don't need this! I feel totally left out, and you would think I am 13 years old. I just watched all the girls talking with each other, and I just felt like an outsider. I kept trying to get into the conversation, but then I felt like I was easdropping. All because some girl intimidates me, and I think I am not part of a group.

Anyways, thanks for letting me vent. I really appreciate it. I took a xanax as soon as i got home, and now I finally feel like the anxiety is lessening. Any good advice would be greatly welcome.

Thanks, Jolie

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: jlvst
Mon, 05-08-2006 - 8:11pm

It's good to see you, Jolie:) I haven't taken the paxil long term, so have no input on that. However, I have had what my pdoc calls a *frozen* reaction to AD's. I can't cry either. It got so bad once that the

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Mon, 05-08-2006 - 9:18pm

Hi Jolie, nice to *see* you again :)

Sheri Ann