Anxiety hitting me in waves
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| Sat, 05-13-2006 - 11:56am |
Maybe just reassurance is all I need.I have been having a lot of stress.Been worried about a lot of things.Mostly issues very close to home,things I cant control,but cant stop worrying about.I wont go into all of it,but my oldest son is battling his pregnant gf,who is using drugs.I hate to say this,but for the moment,I don't have any reasons to like her anymore.Her behavior is so careless and cruel,always reminding us that its her body and her choice to put what she wants in it.Shes being awful.My son cries because his gf is right,this is all out of our control.We get to watch her be so heartless and dumb.He hasn't been the best child and surely put me threw hell with his own issues.But when I see him trying to step up and protect his unborn to the point of not being able to eat,sleep or make it threw a day of work without crying,it just kills me.She tells him the only thing he should worry about is weather he will EVER see his child.(girl)He says its really okay if she wont let him see the baby,he just wants her healthy.He knows he will see her,threw court battles.I just have a lot of things going on.
Yesterday,I kept having anxiety hit me in waves,but its really strong,and scary.I found myself heading for my bedroom.I don't want to get like that again.This


I feel like a stick of dynamite in a small package today.I went from seeing floatys to seeing fire.I don't really take the klonopin during the day.Afraid I will become dependant on it.But ya know,today just may be the day I don't really care,and will remove the word dependant from my vocab.I am learning in a hurry that sometimes we have to just wash our hands of things,even if its our kids.
Jeanie
(((Jeanie))) I think you should take a klonopin.
Sheri Ann
Jeanie, So sorry your having these panic problems. I'm having a little myself also. We know that stress triggers this but how do we keep stress out of our lives?! I have occural migraines, the auroa, but no pain. It triggers anxiety in me also when I have one. We all have the floaters, after a certain age. They have absolutely nothing to do with the migraines. My eye Dr has the migraines like you had, where the vision gets messed up ( auroa) before the headache hits. She assured me that the floaters have nothing to do with the migraine. I have given myself panic attacks worrying about the floaters also. I went to the eye Dr who sent me to a specialist. I had a good eye check and he assured me, as she did that the floaters are harmless. It always helps me to find out from a Dr if my worries are groundless. Now my coffee group and I joke about our floaters. Last year when the knats were bad we joked about seeing each others floaters!! If we can put some humor into our worries it really does help.
I hope these things that are causing your stress will ease up. Sharon
GRACIE
Sharon,I don't think I have ever talked to you before.I found your response very,very comforting.I seriously think your post will make me have a HAPPY DAY;)Migraines are so very scary.My migraines are the worst ones.I cant be touched,I vomit and the aura is just awful,the pain that I get in my head causes me to feel violent,its bad.I take the triptan drugs for them.Which prevents me from being able to take SSRIs,which leaves me stuck with only being able to take klonopin as needed.My fear of those headaches is a stroke.If I even think I am going to get a mig I have an awful panic attack.I developed fear to lights,strong fear.Light sometimes is a trigger for a migraine.As I mentioned in my post,a mig flare up left me with angoaphobia.I was afraid to drive,for fear the aura would prevent me from being able to see and so on.I just stayed in my room,scared and panicky,worrying about the floaters,waiting for the next one.I have tried to post on the migraine board,but ppl who have migraines without panic and anxiety just don't understand.So,you finding my post here and your information is just great,thank you.
I tried to pinpoint my triggers.My period and hormones so far are the biggest trigger.In fact my gyn tried to put me on the pill for other problems,my blood pressure went to high,and I had migraines one after the other.Thats when I developed this strong fear to migraines.
What I am trying to figure out is this strong panic and anxiety I have.I haven't had a migraine now in 2 years.I would always notice just before I would have mig that I would have a breath taking panic attack....then the migraine.Is my panic also a trigger KWIM?I have had panic attacks,anxiety in the last 2 yrs and I will hurry and talk it off and I am fine,NO MIGRAINE.But believe me I totally freak out because I am just sure a mig will follow.So far in 2 yrs though,it hasnt.But my fear is still their.Any info you have would be totally great;)
So you have occural migraines?That's just the auras,w/o the pain?I
Jeanie, Yes I just have the aura, no pain. I also have a dd who has the aura with no pain and a dd who has the migs with no aura. I have had panic/ anxiety disorder for over 30 yrs and I do not get headaches. I have all kinds of other problems which I always think are terminal, LOL! but no headaches. I worked in food service at a State mental hosp. A Dr overheard me saying I never get headaches and said he would like to study me because thats really odd! Would you believe even that scared me!! I don't think the bright light causes the aura, stress does. You see the floaters better because the light is bright. Floaters are harmless and as were finding out can be fun. Sort of like stretch marks, LOL! I'm going to be looking for different shaped ones now since Jan has a lobster shaped one!! When I get the aura I immediately put on sun glasses. They really only last about 20 min and are easier for me to deal with if I have the darkness. A friend of mine who was our church organist got one while playing the organ. She was able to play the familiar liturgy and it let up by the time she got to the hymns. We had a good laugh over that. She had panic problems too. I also have a cataract on my left eye so I have the cloudiness and the floaters. Its very annoying in bright light. None of these things have anything to do with a stroke. Believe me this is the first thing I asked the Drs. I wear shades whenever the sun is out and that helps alot. I know I've been joking alot about this but I do understand just how scarey this all can be. Theres nothing wrong with going into your room until the floaters ease up. We have to do whatever it takes to help us through.
Your going through some rough stuff with your son right now. You have a right to be stressed. I have 11 grandchildren and would be very upset if one of their moms had been using drugs while preg with them. Take care of yourself and do whatever you need to keep your stress down.
Hey Jan, is that a Maine lobster? They are the best!!! Yum Yum!! Its cloudy and rainy today so I can't really check mine out but I'll check later to see if I have more the knats in there!!
GRACIE
Ok Jeanie,Jan and Sharon,
Which it is nice to meet you Sharon by the way,I am Lynn. I am jealoeaus floaters? lobester? No snow crab legs what am I missing?Jeanie when my DS went to Iraq Boy I was a mess probly still am but anyway I use everytool I could and like you the depent went out of my vocab and this wise ladies as brings this to mind Our Meds are tools to help fix us, and so far my tools have kept going. I get scared sometimes and think oh no here we go again but then I say stop who am I is my worring going to fix the problen no but will the big man yes and it worked, well at least to the next time, and knowing there will be a next time and that is how I know I will lived through the next one.Jennie you know you always in my thoughts and prayes.
BIG BIG HUGS Lynn
Lynn,you are such a sweetheart.Thank you so much for your advise.
Jeanie