i couldnt' take it, i quit my job:(

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i couldnt' take it, i quit my job:(
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Tue, 05-23-2006 - 12:51pm

oh ladies, i tried to return to work today, and it i was sooo anxious i couldn't stop crying...i even took a xanax, which the dr. said i could take in an emergency...i thought maybe it would help me get throught the day, but it didn't....i just couldn't function...i couldnt' stop crying....i called my therapist, and we have an apt on thursday, maybe i'll try the partial hospitization...i don't know what else to do...i'm doing everything i can and i'm not feeling better after 1 month of this....


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Tue, 05-23-2006 - 2:09pm
I hope you get to feeling better, Heather. We all have to deal with our anxiety the best we can. You need to follow your *T's* advice. The partial hospitalization will give you some structure & the extra therapy you need. Good luck! (((hugs))) jan




 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 05-23-2006 - 3:25pm
Heather, why did you quit your job??

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 12-26-2005
Fri, 05-26-2006 - 6:33am

Heather, you will get through this. You just have to keep working to find what it takes to get rid of the anxiety or how to deal with it so that it doesn't interfere with normal, everyday life. I bought a book called "When going through hell.....don't stop". I haven't finished it yet, but what I have read is good and so true. Keep telling yourself "I will get through this" and repeat to yourself over and over again when you are having trouble with anxiety. The book is about a man that was hospitalized due to his anxiety, but I've only read one chapter so far so I don't know what exactly worked for him. Everyone is different. It took me 5 months and 4 different meds to find what works for me, plus I am in therapy now and that helps too. I started a new job in Jan and felt anxious because I used to have panic attacks at work in the past. I was worried that panic attacks would ruin my work and my life. That made it even worse. I would take klonopin (which didn't really help) while I was at work, and if I felt anxious or started to have a panic attack, I'd tell myself to calm down, it's just work and if worse comes to worse I will quit and not go back until I find a cure. I also told myself that I'd get through it, that it was a temporary thing and in the end I'd come out stronger. I'd take deep breaths. It wasn't easy, believe me. When I have a panic attack, I feel the urge to just run away and get of there, so I had to do something quick to distract myself. It wasn't easy, being at a new job and not having much work to do. At lunch, I'd call my husband or my mom just talk, and get my mind off of things. I would feel so closed in, like I was being smothered. It was like someone was holding a pillow over my head, I couldn't breath. I've been at work for 4 months now, and though I don't have problems with panic anymore (at least for the past month), I still don't eat lunch because when my nerves are bad, I feel so sick to my stomach. I starve myself and wait until I get home to eat. I'm still learning how to deal with it. I've only improved at work, I haven't been in any social situations yet. (I suffer from social anxiety).

Anyway, it will get better. You just have to find the right treatment for you. Hospitalization may be it.

Good luck, and keep us posted on how you're doing.

Monica

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Fri, 05-26-2006 - 7:57am

It was great to have you stop in & post, Monica. I am happy to hear that you are so pro-active in helping find ways to deal with the anxiety on your own. You are doing a great job! Just wanted to ask, if the not eating @ work had to do with social aspects or perhaps gastrointestinal problems? I have IBS & rather than risk needing to find a BR ASAP, I don't eat while out.


Also, the book is something we all could benefit from. If you think it's worth a read, we would appreciate your posting it to the self help book thread in our *coping tips & tricks* folder below. TIA Good luck! (((hugs))) jan




 

 


 



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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sat, 05-27-2006 - 7:29am

Hi Monica, Nice

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 12-26-2005
Mon, 05-29-2006 - 11:13pm

Hey,

I don't have IBS, but I do have a sensitive stomach. Also, I have this phobia about vomiting, and it's worse if I'm in public or just not at home. So I advoid eating out or at other people's houses as much as I can. I don't always feel anxious about it, but when I have anxiety on a daily basis, I do. I've been doing a lot better, and I'm just excited that I don't need klonopin on a daily basis to cope. I think I'm getting used to work, feeling more comfortable there so I don't feel as nervous. Also, I think the therapy helps.

How do you post something in the folders? I'll mention the book, but I have to dig it up to find the author. I bought it off of amazon. I wanted a book about anxiety that was writen by someone who went thru it, and not by a doctor that teaches you what it is. I wanted to read someone else's experience.

Good to hear from you. I haven't been posting much lately.

Monica

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Tue, 05-30-2006 - 12:48am

I have emetaphobia(fear of vomiting) too. That must be tough not eating due to the fear. I hope you don't get weak/shaky. Perhaps with feeling more comfortable @ your job, you can eat a small meal of soda crackers and ginger ale or tea when you feel up to it.


In the *coping tips & tricks* folder, find the thread for self help books. Just add your post with the name & author of the book. I will make sure it's bumped up, so you won't have to search for it. Good luck, Monica! (((hugs))) jan