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| Sat, 05-27-2006 - 5:35pm |
hey
ive been living with chronic anxiety all my life it runs thru my family if i dont take my 4 xanax a day i cry i feel terrible its really hard especially in tight situations like latley. today i went to go see a possible place to live with my boyfriend. right now we are living in a studio apartment, isolated and on top of eachother. we looked today at the possibility of moving into a house with people our age. the situation would be perfect. it has to be well maintained because the parents of the people living with us in the meantime own it and will be retiring in it, the kids hate drinking (so do we) the parents will pay a maid to clean it once a week because they want to maintain the house, they are giving us a free parking spot, the kids arnt noisey, heating, air condintioning is free, no smoking in the house, our cat can stay (amazing) we can paint the walls if we want basically a dream come true plus they are really nice. but i am flipping the F out about it. it is making me so nervous sooooo nervous just even the thought of deciding whether or not we should live there. what if our cat escapes what if someone forgets to turn off the stove what if someone forgets to lock the door etc etc even tho i know this could be just what we need. so what do i do of course i bing and bing on food. i am not a binger, im not fat i dont even really like food that much, but sometimes when i get this nervous i need to just stuff myself with food because i want to sedate myself so that i am too full to do anything. i cant go out i can make phone calls i cant go to sleep. i am so sad. p.s i do weight watchers and i binge on weight watchers food! i ate like a whole box of 3 point muffins a whole bag of the candy 5 desserts all kinds of rediculous disgusting bs.
love peanut butta

Hi & welcome.
Sheri Ann
a therapist about your eating problems! Judy
Those of us with anxiety can totally relate to the *what if* thinking. Making any sort of move is bound to be stressful. However, keeping things in perspective is a must. If it worries you about the cat, put the sign on the door like Sheri Ann suggested. A couple of months ago, I had to leave the workmen in my house with 3 cats & a dog. It did bother me as I was leaving & kept nagging @ me the entire time I was gone. They assured me they would be very careful. They were, because all those wet noses were there to greet me upon my return:)
This housing situation sounds ideal. I especially like the painting/maid. OMG! Go for it. Don't allow the anxiety to keep you down.
How about the Compulsive Overeating Board? They have alot of support to offer & some great challenges & folders to post in. Here's the link: